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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Thursday, March 31, 2005

Something happened in sch just now when I was abt to get out of the sch...And I was kinda taken aback by what happened. First, well...there was sort of a misunderstanding going on...Well, no fret abt that as it doesn't concern me. What got me taken aback was that my bro..not blood bro though...suddenly raised his voice at me..I merely asked him what was wrong with his hand as it was being bandaged. Well, me being the concerned sister here, asked politely but was given a rough reaction. Haisss...All I did was asked something. I was being concerned and worried upon seeing my bro like that and yet was given a fierce reply. All this while he talks to me in a very sweet manner, The very 'manja-manja' type...The both of us were like real sibz...The bond we had was as though we've known each other all our lives..
Then I don't know what got on his nerves till he gave me that kinda reaction. Well, was quite upset lah and also taken aback...But I didn't take it to heart..Well, these are trivial matters compared to what I had experience before which was even worse..

A lot really happened in sch today man..Finally, get to meet my dear English teacher who's like a mum to us...Met her already on Monday but we didn't get to have a long talk. Hence, went for lunch with her and catch up on old times...After all that was done, went back to school and sat at her table. Then, it happened. Hahas...She was another person who has talked to me into retaking some of my O level subjs. Oh gosh!! I thought I didn't want to be associated with any O level stuffs anymore..but..there she was explaning and sets me thinking hard abt my future..
Hmmms...I don't know man..There's just too many factors which I gotta take into consideration with regards to my education.

Now, I even have to think twice abt going to poly in abt a yr or two. After what my dad told me...I was kinda disheartened. I'm not sure whether I have to forgo my plan of going to poly or not. There's just too many...and I really mean too many things for me to think abt...Once, I even thought of just stopping my education after my O's. But there's just something in me which wants to keep on going. I ain't gonna stop here...I ain't gonna give up without achieving my dreams..But..Oh well..There's just too many "buts" and "if" in my life...
Life ain't a pleasant journey...As the going gets tough, the tough gets going. I'll have to think thoroughly abt what my Eng teacher said to me earlier...
*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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