Thursday, April 20, 2006
And so, the one we've been waiting for is finally out..RESULTS. Yes, it's out earlier than expected. Received a msg from dearest Aini mentioning abt the release and that was like 715pm. I was going to have my bath when the phone sounded. Upon reading the msg, I was kinda frantic. I almost forgot that I'm actually waiting for my results to be out. How stupid can that be?? Oh well..Dumbness.. So, immediately on my computer and logged in. Lucky the system wasn't lagging. Maybe not many students knew about it yet. Was already nervous about this so I slowly clicked on the 'My Exam Results' button. Tada...There it was. Gave out a relief sigh cos I managed to pass. Well, the most important one was the PR. That darn module. It was a seriously good thing that I passed that!!! Marvellous..Lols..So yeah..Freaking happy that I passed all of them.Due to the excitement, I just msged the first person who's in my inbox. Without realising who that person is of course. After sending, then I realised it was actually him. Darnation...Too esctatic till the 'dumbness' got out of me again..Well, yeah..Then came in the usual 'Congrats' and stuffs...Was basically bouncing my way to the bathroom after that. Haha...Told Dad upon his arrival at home and yeah..He was glad too. I couldn't stop thanking the Almighty enough. Alhamdulilah.Then went down to meet that friend to pass his cd. But it turns out to be the wrong type. Both were already kinda speechless. Haha..I looked at him, he looked at me. He then went to buy the correct type and was back in a matter of mins. So burned the songs into the particular cd again, just for him, and went back down. This time around, with the correct type. Grab a drink from 7-11 and sat at the void deck, doing nothing but telling ghost stories. Not me. The story telling was done most by him. Scared the hell out of me. Some were freakinly funny though, especially the one where he's experienced. Before that, he did something really really stupid to that drink which we were supposed to have. In the end, he drank alone. Hah...Spent about an hr plus, talking about stuffs. Things are all going well. Insyallah. Well, hungry right now...Au revoir then.Oh yeah, those who managed to pass, CONGRATULATIONS!!!! See ya guys on 2nd of May. =)
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Monday, April 17, 2006
It's getting more mundane day by day. Without work especially. Was up till 5 this morning doing nothing but talking on the phone, conferencing rather. And that made me woke up at 4 plus in the evening. Lols.. Just as expected, 2 against 1 battle. Was being lectured by a 17 and 22 yrs old. For the whole of 3 hours, I couldn't get away with that particular topic. Which seems to be their favourite one. After all the hoo haas, they came back with the same intention in mind. Geez..Was desperately trying to get myself out of that particular topic but was unable too.Being negative always. Running from reality. Don't believe in chances or rather opportunities that came by and always don't dare to try things out. All these were being repeated over and over again. Hah..Am I that strong-headed? Thinking back on yesterday's conversation with those 2 pals, I gotta admit. There are some truths in this whole scenario. To other people, it's different yet to me it's special? I was on the verge of laughing when they told me that, but thinking that it was a serious matter, decided not to.They were seriously trying their best to help me out in this scenario. Kept brainwashing and drilling my brain day after day. Till I even dreamt of it. Hah..We'll just see how things are. Whether the scenario happens or not. I guess I just gotta prepare a carton of Cornetto for that pal of mine huh...In time to come, my friend. Heh..Aaaanyways, thanks a lot. For the effort in this whole thing. I know you guys are tired from repeating it again and again. Wait and see the results ayte..=)
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Thursday, April 13, 2006
And so the cat is out of the bag...It will then soon be at everyone's mouth..Dammit...I just don't know what else to say...Simply speechless...Everyday, there must be something to spoil the beautiful day ain't it....How I wish it was just another perfect day..I want to believe that it is just another perfect day...However, I don't think it will be...Weekends coming soon and tomorrow's a public holiday. Working tomorrow. But not on Saturday. So...Anyone has any plans to go out on Saturday? I don't have any and I'm gonna be stuck at home with boredom. With the 2 lil sibs at home. Confirm kecoh...Oh yeah..I just received a bad news...My dearest chinese bro will be serving the nation soon. Just went for his medical check up just now. Gosh...I actually cried when he told me that news. Can't believe this..It's like as though I ain't missing him enough that NS gotta grab him away from me. Now, I'm gonna miss him even more..Especially the part when he said, "You won't be seeing me for 2 yrs..." Wahlau...Like as if he's not booking out. Told him that we could meet up when he book out but knowing that bro of mine, all he cares about is sleep. I'm just so so sad about this...Within that 2 years, anything can happen ain't it...Sad yet worried for him..Haiss...
Till next time..
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Been feeling extremely tired nowadays even though I wake up late noon. Too sleepy till got no mood for work. Just very very sleepy. Aanyways, weekend was ok lah. On Sat was that someone's bdae but I couldn't really give him a proper wish. Rarely saw him on that day even though both are working. The environment there was simply busy til I couldn't really get a lil time off. So yeah...Before going home, just waved goodbye and stuffs. Workmates decided to grab a bite at a coffeeshop nearby and we discussed about lotsa stuffs during that time. Cleared our doubts on certain things. Felt better somehow but still in confusion. Dilemma. The next day had to go for this Customer Mania course thingy at Toa Payoh. Took almost the whole day. Ended at 6 and had to proceed back to work. How lethargic can it be. Then lotsa customers coming in. Imagine lah..Very tiring for us. Until about 11pm then we had our rest. Monday was an off day so spent the day sleeping in. Well, not really. Could only slept in until 2pm. 1/4 wanted to meet up so yeah..Promised her to be present by 230 but I end up reaching the place at 3 instead. Cos I fell back to sleep after she msged me which is at 130pm. Haha..Just too tired lah..Sorry hor..Then went to citylink and get some stuffs and both of us don't know where to go already. Then headed home..Exam results gonna be out next week. Just realised that when Kak Sally told me yesterday. Haha...I thought it's gonna be out in 2 weeks time. Lol..Well, gotta be prepared for the worst, huh..Well, it's this date again..The date where I was blissed for a while. I didn't want to remember it but just when I looked at the date on my watch, memories gushed into my head like a bullet train. I didn't even have the time to stop or prevent it. Memories come and go. At the end of the day, it will only become a part of us. There's nothing much we can do about it.Pretty much happy with my current state. Even though there may be times which I totally broke down thinking about why I'm like this, why I can't seem to be the old self kinda thing..Even at this instance, I'm just thoughtless as what's going on with me. Oh well, I guess I just gotta go with the flow like what others said. Which I think is better too lah...Everything is unpredictable.
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Thursday, April 06, 2006
Boy, am I glad to hear the news. My net friend is finally hitched with the one he love most. I'm happy for him. After all those, they are together. And now that they are together, they want to help me with my problem. Hah..Sorry, but me and that person ain't no longer contacting. No reason why. It suddenly stopped. Thanks for the thought, though..This net friend of mine used to have the same problems as me hence we kinda like understand and confided in each other. Kept giving him advices and stuffs. I still remembered how sad he was during that time. Now, he's back to his normal, jovial self. May you and your girl be blessed always. Well, irony it may seem that I kept advising and encouraging people but when it comes to myself, nothing can be done. Like what I told that friend of mine, I've quit hoping. Especially on these kinda thing. I find it useless, hoping for things which will never happen. It's just a waste of time. My work mate once asked when I'm gonna get attached. I simply told her, I'm not for it this instance and I immediately went on to other topic. It may seem that I'm running away. But no. I just don't want to think about it. If it meant to happen, then I accept. If not, there's no point in talking or dreaming about things like this. I may sound like I'm giving up totally on the big word. RELATIONSHIP. However, I'm not. Well, maybe partially. Hah...What's the difference anyway. I'm still young and why do I have to strain myself with these kinda matter? It's still too early to talk about serious committments, ain't it. Besides, I'm only turning 19 this year. So yeah...Pointless thinking abt it.Oh, I eventually became a victim of someone's mood swing at work just now. Like what the fish..If you're not happy with me, we can just talk it out. However, if it's someone else who makes you rage with mad, why the hack must you let it out on me? What do you think am I? Yeah, it seems that you've been doing it all along and I just kept mum about it. There's a limit to everything, don't you think so? I don't know why you've been acting like this since that complication matter. Just get over it and start anew lah..Why must I be the victim over and over again..Maybe it's just me. I don't understand and I doubt I ever will.
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Finally, changed my layout and url after like using it for a year. Just felt like the whole thing should be revamp kinda thing. So yeah..I'm not creative AT ALL so it's just plain skin thingy. All those html codes and stuffs, oh they make my head spin. So I just do whatever I know. Better ain't it..Hah..Oh yeah, my dearest Levi's Jeans got dirtied by mud. Dammit. It was raining heavily this noon and I was heading back home and hurried myself as I didn't bring any umbrella. However, I didn't realise that I walked on a patch of mud. Reached home and changed and tada...I saw the 'artwork' at the back of my jeans. How 'nice' it is. All filled with mud. Hopefully, it'll be as clean as new after washing it. Hah..My dearest sis is back at work again. How delighted I was, working with her. Another sister also coming back to work this Thursday after taking a break from urm..Some complications. It's really a pleasure to have wonderful people around you. Other than that, I think I'm missing Mr Bro..Haven't been working with him since last week. Or rather since he gave me that 'trademark' of his. Heard that he'll be on tomorrow so yeah..Looking forward to it.How nice it is to be in holiday mode. Sleep late as usual and woke up even later. Lols..Whole day doing nothing except sleeping, being online or Naruto Marathon-ing. I don't even care if I had my meal or not. Heh..However, kinda missing the usual peeps. Councillor mates esp. The laughters, jokes and all. Haiss...Hmmm....Oh yeah, the BBQ for the sec sch peeps, which I had in mind initially on the 15th, is officially CANCELLED. Looking at the response I got and also the budget, and also the weather these few days...They aren't too good. So yeah, I decided to let it go. So now, I don't have to think of the amount of money I need for the stuffs. I can use it for other purposes!!! How great...So yeah, well, if you want any gathering, maybe we just meet up for a meal or a movie....Better that way ain't it...I'm just tired of doing things when people don't really reciprocate...Feel like going out but there's no destination and no company. So bored..Sometimes, being single has its disadvantages somehow, eh? However, it's wonderful too. I think maybe the advantages of being single are more than the disadvantages. To each it own lah eh..A year plus, leading this this kinda life. What more can I ask for? The feeling is just, undescribable? Well, um..ok lah..Till here...=)
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1:29 AM
Sunday, April 02, 2006
And so it seems that my exams are OVER!! Haha...Now comes the holidays..Till 2nd May. This holiday is seriously well deserved for us for not having any since the term started last year. Oh well, next term starts on 2nd May. It marks the 2nd Year. Hopefully, I'm able to pass the exams and proceed to 2nd year. I ain't want to take any repeat modules. Going through them once is enough. Let's just see how it goes when I get my results on the 21st April.
Enough of studying, now's the time to work. Gonna commit myself to work almost everyday. Or I'll be bored to death at home. Other than that, gotta go back to school in late April, to help out in the orientation thingy for new intakes on May that is. Councillors joining hands with Bridge Leaders for this thing. May everything turn out well. There's gonna be a bbq on this 4th. Only 'Ok Best pham' people. However, I couldn't turn up for it due to work. Got new staffs and got to train them on work. Seriously sorry people. Another pit coming up on the 15th. With the Sec Sch peeps. I have no comments abt this lah. Just gotta see how it turns out.
Other than that, am still flu-ing away. For the past 3 weeks. Just because of walking in the rain. Well, it wasn't actually raining lah. It's just drizzling. Thus getting the flu. I always get sick. That's seriously no good. Now, throat's giving me problems. Haiss...Oh yeah, I'm gonna prove to someone that when having CRUSHES are seriously, plainly CRUSHES. They come and go. So yeah, I WON'T acknowledge it. Feelings will go away soon. It just sucks to be falling in and out again and again. If you think I'm against it, well, not really. But I'm happy the way it is. Used to take things seriously in the past and look what it has done to me. Hence, I've learnt not to take EVERY SINGLE THING really seriously. I mean, yeah, there must be things which we as humans, gotta take seriously, but not all. This reminds me. I dreamt of the past person last night. Like why the hack must I dream of him when we haven't been talking since like dunno when??!! Whatever it is, it's just a lousy dream.Well, before I go, here's something...Why do we hurt the ones we love,the one we need most?Why do we take advantageof their unwavering trust?Is it because we wonder if their love is real,and will they always be herethrough all our ups and downs?Are we afraid to love andeven more afraid to trust?Could it be we're insecure andwe need to test their love?Do we feel love can't be trustedbecause we've been hurt before,while searching for happiness?Why not let it go?
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