Saturday, January 28, 2006
First and foremost, HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR to all those who'll be celebrating it. And HAPPY HOLIDAYS, to those not celebrating it. Well, even if it's only for a short while. It's still worth a holiday ain't it. So yeah, enjoy your hoildays...As much as I want to enjoy mine, I gotta work. For the whole of 4 days of holidays. What to do, need money lah...Haha..Tiring, yes it is but it has to go on. At least I'm holding one job unlike one of my friend. She's holding two. No matter how lethargic she is, she will still try to present herself in school and try to make herself seem that everything is ok. I gotta give her credit for that. Unlike someone else, who come to sch, mainly to sleep?? while the rest are busy doing their assignments and stuffs. I don't really blame her lah but there are others who are also working and in the same boat as her but still they force themselves to be awake and concentrate on studies. Oh well, I just hope that that particular person can change by the end of time. She did say that though, but remind yourself. To change yourself is not an overnight procedure. It sure do takes up a certain period of time. Long, short. It's all up to you.I'm finally done with my BZC project only to be known that it can be handed in on Wednesday. I rushed that assignment when she said it's to be passed up on Friday. Well, giving us more time to complete is good enough lah but..Never mind then. I don't think I'm gonna do any changes to my powerpoint slides anymore. Oh yeah, got my PR CA paper back and it was a good thing that I passed. The MCQs helped me to pass. The structured essay qns all 'hancur'. Can get only 1 or 2 marks for each qn. Hah...People said that the exam timetable is out but I've yet to check it. Anyway, it's gonna be carried out in about 2 months time. Late March. Then holidays!!! However, during that duration before my exams and holidays, I'm packed with more and more projects. SC Valentine's Day, OR, PR presentation, EVM....And the list goes on?? I'm just refraining myself from 'exploding' again.Apparently, I'm kinda at my wits' end. I don't know to take someone seriously or not. Well, that particular phrase is indeed popular huh. "Action speaks louder than words". So yeah, I don't know to trust the words or not. Hopefully, there will be a light guiding me to the right path one day. Insyallah.Till then, Au revoir.
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Friday, January 20, 2006
Apologies for being MIA for way too long. Was damn packed with lotsa stuffs...Lotsa assignments to be completed and handed up. Life's getting tougher...I've been sick for a week, no more fever but the flu bug is still there. It just sucks to be sick. Cannot do things properly.Anyway, new intakes are in. Total of 19 classes. Which also means lesser space for everyone of them and they have to squeeze their butt in the freaking amphitheatre of ours. Like suddenly you see ITE Bishan alive. With the presence of the new intake that is. Oh yeah, shocking thing abt new intake was that I saw someone who look like my previous 'her'. The hairstyle and skin colour. Only thing is that she's a lil bit shorter. Damn, I miss her. Not as much though. Darling in head over heels with her 'Abg Janggut' who is obviously not of my age. Or rather, our age. Must be in his early 20s. Then, there's 'Bryan' Number 2. Malay version. Haha...A few of my juniors are there too. Well, they have thus begin their new life in ITE.School's getting on pretty....OK, I guess. Am just looking forward to finish that one year and have the one month break. Have to start doing my research already as the soft copy has to be handed in by next week. I seriously have to find time doing it, which also means I have to sacrifice my sleeping hours which is already worse enough. My usual sleeping time is at 1am after work. Then now, having to complete my project, it might be extended till 3am. 2 hours of sleep and off to school. That's totally insane. I just gotta bear with it cos there's no other means.Got lotsa shocking news but I don't know where to start. Ok, let's start with 'I saw the psycho'. Yes, I saw that bloody 'psycho' H at bishan mrt when I wanted to go home. He's not really a psycho lah people, it's just that, his actions made me describe him as one. I was freaking stunned to see him. I wasn't sure whether he recognizes me but I'm damn certain it's him. With his yellow cap..Upon boarding the train, he was like looking at my direction but I prevented myself from looking towards him. Wahlau...!!!! I tell ya, I was practically shivering in the train until I got off at City Hall. I was so afraid that he would come up to me and well, tapped on my shoulder and say 'hi' kinda thingy.Next, someone confessed to me about something a few days back. Which I kinda find hard to really accept the whole situation. It happened too sudden you see. I shall look into the matter though. Don't worry 2/4, I'll seriously think about it. Btw, congrats on winning the comp!!! =)Another thing is, I wanted to ignore someone to get rid of 'it'. However, it seems hard for me to do so as my 'bro' and 'sis' are close to her. My sis on the other hand, always ask me for company to meet that particular someone. I'm trying my very best to forget the whole damn thing though. I shall now find means and ways to ignore that person and reasons as to why I won't be meeting them regularly?? Hopefully I will succeed.My dearest sister at work won't be working till don't know when. She'lll be leaving for Australia soon and she might just migrate over. I was so upset about it that I cried the other day. My work life won't be lively anymore without her. She might be leaving tomorrow or Sunday. I want to send her off but hopefully it won't be on Sunday as I'm working night shift. Most of us are sad about her departure. Haiss...Off day tomorrow hence thought of going out with darling and Syueks. Well, hopefully. Not too sure what's the plan yet but I seriously need to go out. I don't want to stay home in this condition of mine. Even though I still have not recover, I need a breathe of air. Fresh air that is. I've had enough of pungent ones. Oh well...shall stop here then. Err...Sorry for the long entry yeah..=) Have a nice and blessed weekend!!!Just to share, songs are not allowed to be put on blogs anymore stated by the ministry. In order to have one song on your blog, a $1000 fee is needed. Was kinda surprised to hear or rather read it from CNA. So readers, beware yeah. =)
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Sunday, January 08, 2006
School's started and it kinda pretty sucks. Ain't enough sleep and end up sleeping in class. That's a norm already lah. I've yet to start on my powerpoint presentation which is due in mid-feb. Few more weeks to go yet nothing has been done. Nowadays, I'm just not looking forward to almost everything. Just the other day, I talked to Syueks abt it. Wake up, proceed to sch, lessons, work, home. I don't know why but I just feel bored? Not really lah...But I just don't seem to look forward to anything at all. Pretty boring life? Hmmms...Those who really perks up the mood and atmosphere are just a few. And now, one of those few will be leaving me behind. Boy, I'm sad to hear that. She's going away to Australia and maybe settle down there with her brother. Worse thing, her whole family will also go there. She's my sister at work and we usually go back together, share about lotsa stuffs and now, she's going away. Next week will be her last in SG. I can't imagine being at work without her presence. She's sucha lovable, naive kid. I'm so afraid that she'll change once she's over there. All I can say is I'm gonna miss her real much. Other than that, everything's fine, I guess. Well, hopefully lah..Am waiting for Hari Raya Haji. Can meet all my cousins again. Miss them badly. Granny's not doing too well either. Am freakin worried about her condition. As much as I don't want her to leave, I know that she will go some day. And that's freaking hard to fully accept it. I've lost my mother, then my uncle, then granduncle...All that happened in the past 3 years. I am just so afraid of losing my precious ones. But nothing can be done to avoid it. I know. Be it family or friends.For YOU, don't know lah you'll be reading it or not, but anyway...I just find it hard to believe. It's just not you. Well, maybe you are really together back, but I have to say I'm sorry for not believing that. I trusted you once but it was betrayed. Hence, it's tough for me to trust you again. Hope you can understand that. Whether or not it's true, it's your problem. You don't have to tell me. I don't need nor do I have the right to know. Just knowing that you're fine and safe is good enough for me. With who you're going out or dating or having relationships with, do me a favour. Keep it to yourself ayte. Thank you for acceeding to my request.
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Monday, January 02, 2006
HaiyooooooooooooooI'm so stressed with my FEELINGS.....What must I do to get rid of that particular thing????!!!!Do I really have to get committed in order for me to get over it??Wahlau...I thought it's all over...But it's only the beginning....More to come??Sometimes, I think I'm lying to myself..Being a hypocrite to myself...My life is in a TOTAL MESS...It's in a WRECKAGE...Now I understand why people can't get out of it when they are in it..And when they are out of it, either one of the party will suffer greatlyAnd that pretty sucks...I think I need a counsellor...A QUALIFIED one that is...=S
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