Wednesday, November 23, 2005
School's started 2 days ago..First day was well, nothing fun. Except for the fact that I came for only 2 hrs, only to listen to the I/C of my course lecture about our modules and results..So basically, yeah..Damn slack..Went home and sleep and get off to work. 2nd day of school, absent..Haha..Chest pains came back and hurts real much. 3rd day which was today, it was ok. Again, kinda slack also. Then had combined lectures with darl's class for PR. That's the best lah aytes..Can see her always..And it will carry on till about next april..Long term we're gonna have this time. The timetable's this term is kinda ok lah..Get to start late and not do duties but also go home late lah..Long hours of lessons. And I can't believe that I will be having 2 hours of PR lectures!!!! It's 2 hours, mind you. Even just now, when it was only about 20 mins, I was already feeling sleepy. What more 2 hours??!!! Gosh...Then got keyboarding skills, like hah? Funny seh...Maybe I'm just looking forward to the events which I'm gonna help out soon enough this wed and christmas time. It's part of the event's management course. So yeah..Organising and stuffs...Loads of work to be done..Weather's making me sleep in and not wanting to get up for school. But I've already told myself to buck up and attend school. So yeah, am trying to change for the better? Hmms..Hopefully. Off day today so went to watch Harry Potter..It was fabulous, I tell you. The sound effects was indeed powerful. The whole thing itself was fantastic. Well, being kinda emo during one part where someone died. Cedric Diggory that is. Murdered by that freakin Voldemort. Wasn't the only one who cried though..A few others around me did, too!! Haha..It's been ages since I last watched a movie and hell yeah it makes me feel great after doing so. Walked passed E-zone and guess who I saw?? Haha..It was the female version of someone. Lols...Looking at that particular someone reminds me of a friend who is said to be her 'uncle'. But I guess, like what my friend who I went to watch the movie with, said, "it's better to be with the original"..Haha..She kept on pinching me when I looked at the female version..Lols..How I wish the male version was there instead..Lols...Argh!! I'm confused with myself. It's not that I can't differentiate stuffs but things are just too complicated? When the only hope was there, I'm afraid that history would repeat itself hence I let it all go. Then came that particular phase which no one could ever imagine me being in it. I just don't know what the hack am I feeling all these while. I never feel a thing for 'them' anymore but it's kinda hard to extract the real truth. It's like lifeless. Oh gosh...I don't know what else I can do..
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Thursday, November 17, 2005
Like finally, exam results are out..Was feeling kinda nervous esp for my accounts module. But well, hmms...Thank God, I managed to pass every modules. The coolest part is that I passed accounts for the very first time..Well, I've been failing it since the Sec sch days so yeah..Even though it wasn't a really good grade, I still consists a pass in accounting module lah ok..Which means, I can now say goodbye to accounts!! I was hoping that I wouldn't have to retake the accounts module and yeah, now I ain't got anything to worry about, where accounts is concerned. Phewwww....Darl managed to pass too..Glad for you too dearie..=) Exam results are out and that mean school's opening soon. This Monday that is. I'm sooooo not looking forward to it and I don't know why. Well, apart from Darl's and Yat's craziness. I don't really miss sch. Unlike in sec sch times. Haiss...Still gotta live with it for about 2 more years to come. Super sians..Then councillor. Gosh..I gotta be an early bird again. Waking up very early just sucks. Won't get enough sleep when school starts and yeah, brain-racking starts..New modules and stuffs..3 more days is all I have.Raya's ending soon. Great..!! Haha..And, the year's ending soon too. A month plus more to go and that's it. New Year..Am I still the same old person I was last time? Or have I changed? Hmmms...Well, changes always occurs anywhere, anytime ain't it..Okies lah, off to bed now..Au revoir!! =)
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Monday, November 14, 2005
What a FUCKER you are...!!!! I can't believe you...Through all these years that I've known you, it didn't cross me that you would stoop that low...You changed drastically...Damn DRASTICALLY. I'm not sure whether I should trust you ever again..And should I inform the rest about it...You're getting more and more manipulative!!! You are indescribable, dammit...I wouldn't have thought that you would actually 'sold' US out...You are sucha bloody JERK, you know that??!!!!! I didn't know that YOU are sucha BASTARD...!!!!! I should be more wary of you right now, shouldn't I?? I don't want to be the next victim of yours.....Thanks for all the 'TRUST' and 'CONCERN' you've showed us all these while yeah....THANKS REAL LOT, MR BASTARD!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!
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Sunday, November 13, 2005
So, the 'jalan-raya' thingy with mates went ok, I guess. Despite having some complications and awkwardness...Oh wells, guess it could really happen some other time..Decided to meet up at 12pm but SOME PEOPLE came late, as usual..Abt an hr. The SAME OLD PEOPLE every year..Or rather at every gatherings..Haiyooo...Where's your punctuality my dear bros?? Haha...But, it was cool that no one was mad lah. And well, the best thing was, my dear Mr Khai and Muz and Becks[the EX] wore as if they are going to town, for shopping...You know what I mean?? CASUAL WEAR...JEANS and SHIRT...It's not wrong, yeah I know..But, come on lah, use your initiative lah..It's the festive season mah..Wear something traditional lah..Even if it's last year, or last last year or last last last year's clothing...Wahlau ehs...Hope that'll be the last that I'm gonna see you people in that kinda attire for Hari Raya??? Haiyooo....Oh yeah, the EX came along too. So, at first was kinda awkward feeling for me and I was kinda unhappy?? that he was there..But things turned out well. We started to talk and joke around like normal. AS IF NOTHING EVER HAPPENED. So yeah, I was trying my best to act that way, but somehow somewhere in my mind feels that he owes me something. Then went to his house..Worse. I didn't want to go up at first cos something bad just happened before that and also the awkwardness lah...But seeing mates heading towards his place happily, I wouldn't want to be the spoiler and hence proceeded up. So yeah, whatever...Just hope that he's fine with his partner...After that, went to "Mum's" house at Upper Changi Road. It was great meeting her back..It's been real long since I went back to CCS to meet up with her. I miss Akmal already..Haiss...He was being sucha good host just now and I felt pleased. Haha..So freaking cute lah that lil guy...Took pics with her and left soon after. It was already at 11pm by then. Some gotta work whereas some gotta sch..Mum also gotta school tomorrow, so yeah, returned her privacy back. Working tomorrow at 4. So I can sleep for as long as I want..haha..Haisss...If only things could turn out the way I wanted it to...Yeahs2, it's always been me who has to understand others...I'm the starter and I'm the victim. Great huh...Well, toodles lah..
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Friday, November 11, 2005
I'm over the moon!!!!! Wheeeeee~ Well, maybe not yet lah...I'm just elated...Nearly wanted to give up and do what 2/4 asked me to, that is go to bed and have a rest for I'm still sick. Was about to do just that when Bro M, chatted with me about something. So, was kinda being stopped by him lah..Spend about 15 mins chatting with him, but still nothing happened. However, the thing which I wanted it to happen, happened in the next 5 mins!!!! Boy, am I glad to have waited..And not sleeping just as yet. Lols..I was so freaking happy that I kept smiling and smiling..Told my 2/4 about it..She wants to know every bit of what happened but I can't really multi-task..I won't be able to concentrate...Hmms...It's kinda complicated for me to post it down, but as long as it eventually happened, I'm happy enough..Haha...2/4, it was such a wonderful thing..Lols...Slept at nearly 5am and the sleep was, well, peaceful...I can imagine that if it didn't happen, I would have trouble sleeping and I would have kept thinking about it. I would be restless. Tsk tsk....But, it happened. Gosh....Aytes, so shall let it end right here lah hor...haha...So, I finally went to doc's after like 1 week of having flu, fever, sore throat and cough. This is the effect of drinking too much of gassy drinks, I guess..Got myself an MC from work, and sleep the whole day..The medicine makes me fall flat on my bed..So weak..The flu has since subside but the cough hasn't. In fact, it's getting worse. My voice's a lil bit different too due to the blockage I'm having. Siansation...Hopefully, I'll be fine by Sunday. If not, I wouldn't be in my best of mood, 'jalan-rayaing' with mates...Cos once I'm sick, I prefer staying at home..So yeah, can just hope that I'm ok when the time comes.Well, I'm still glad that it happens. Haha...I'm still smiling, thinking of it..Sweetness...hahaha...Lols...Even if it's for a while, I'm content that it once happened. *winks*
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Monday, November 07, 2005
Ok, Raya was urms...Cool?? It was all right, I guess..Apart from being forced to eat and stuffs, everything else was fine. Went to aunt's place where granny was and stayed there for quite a while. My dear cuzzies was there..The young ones were busy playing their own games, the middle ones were playing soccer at the lift area whereas the elder ones was in the house, chilling. Haha..Then we started to get crazy by taking all sorts of photos and poses..It so happened when my cuz, Fir, has finished 'layaning' his sch mates. Lols..He was the one who started all those pics taking thingy. It was fun lah..Then exchanging of stories and stuffs. About each other's life. That was the first day. For 2nd day, dad had to work so we didn't go out. Saturday, it was my turn working, actually, both dad and me working lah. Then dad came home ard 9pm. Siblings were already unhappy cos they are bored at home and with this kinda festive season happening, who wants to stay at home, ain't it??? So, ard 10 pm, brother called me up at work, saying that they will be going to aunt's place which is near to ours. So yeah, after work, rushed there. And stayed till about 2am. Haha..Sunday, went cemetry visiting and to the west side. My dad's side that is. So tired and sleepy. The last place yesterday was at punggol. Uncle's place. Was already half-asleep by then. Gotten a flu, slight fever and a sore throat. The flu is kinda bad..Sucks lah..Can't work properly this way. Working at 4 till night as usual later..This weekend, will be going out 'jalan raya-ing' with mates. But damn, there seems to be some problem. Not all of them are confirmed going. I've already tried hard enough to get a leave for this sunday's occassion and this had to happen. Like Fcuk right..When I'm unable to go, they won't be too happy. Now, when I'm free, they are the ones who are not sure. Why must it be like this?? Feel like cancelling the whole thing and just go to work man...Kinda pissed already...Haisss...Then now, I'm like half-hearted. I've already invited one of my friend for this outing which he has yet to confirmed, but one of the mates suggested not bringing people whom they don't know. So as to avoid uncomfortability and communication barrier. So now, what am I supposed to do? Tell the guy that reason? Or tell him that the whole thing is cancelled so that he won't be following? Just at my wit's end lah..Then best friend said she won't be joining us if her ex is following just because my friend and her ex are gd friends, so they will surely be together. Damn!!!!! This super sucks lah ok!!!! I already have a feeling to cancel it..Just forget about the whole thing..But some said, it's once a year thingy and all those stuffs...But hey, look at the response I get??!!! I've sacrificed my work just for this thing..Not only me, some others also sacrificed for the sake of the outing, yet this happened. Some people asked me to spare a thought for others, but is there anyone who's gonna do the same thing to me??!!!! Hey, come on lah..Do unto others what you want others to do unto you. Dammit lah...I can't think of anything anymore..Just so sick and tired...So, it's either the outing will go on but without the usual mates, or it will be cancelled. I guess, it's simple that way?? It's always me who have to do the thinking...Wth...Shall be gone for now. Gotta take a short nap before going to work.
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Thursday, November 03, 2005
And finally...Everything's done..Well, almost..Apart from filling the empty bottles with 'kuih2s', the rest is ok. Got back from work at ard 5 plus then cooked for the family for the last day of break fast and get on with baking of cookies again..Yeah, last min work..haha..Shifted the chairs, lay the carpet, change the 'alas meja' and stuffs..Man, tiring it was..But glad everything's ok..It's 3 am now and no one at home is sleeping..Dad's still busy doing some cleaning of fans etc..The sibz are helping him..The mood for 'raya' is just isn't here. Well, like the past 2 years..It's been meaningless. So yeah..Don't feel the excitement or enjoyment of it..Just like any other day..Oh yeah..Someone called me out of the blue..This 'Mr' here called me thrice but I didn't answer..Well, was busy doing something else mah..So when he called for the 4th time, I got to answer it eventually. A lil hello and stuffs, and called him back using house phone cos he asked to. Outgoing calls are expensive mah..Then, talked abt preparation of hari raya, work, family and the past...He mentioned abt the 'Ex'..Just kept quiet lah..Lazy to talk about it anymore. However, in the midst of our convo, the line was cut off. I guess, he accidentally put down his phone. He was accompanying his friends who were looking for some last min stuffs. And just a lil while ago, 'Mr' msged me..Then again, he asked something weird. Well, as he wanted it that way, I answered it truthfully. It's surprising that we're in the same boat too...Hmms..So we share the same sadness...I wonder what is he up to...Hmms...He's like being...Odd..I don't know lah..Shall see in days to come..Won't be visiting many houses tomorrow...The usual 3 places only. Grandma[mum's side], Great-granny and 2nd eldest Uncle [from dad's side]...Am just gonna spend time with my dear cuz and get crazy...Haha..That's us..The crazy and mischevious duo..So gotta get some sleep now..Damn tired liao...To all my muslim friends out there, 'SALAM AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR BATIN'!!!!!!! Take care always...*hugs* =)
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