Thursday, August 31, 2006
Well, been busy for the past few days with the Learning Adventure, Teachers' Day Celebration, Projects and others. Which then made me so stressed up and always face low morality. In addition, condition in school and at home is getting more worse. I've been going to school just for the sake of attendance and not study itself. It's no longer interesting as it used to be. People change. Everything change. It's like there's no more joy in that particular phase. No longer united. Everyone is facing in different directions, cos of a misunderstanding. I don't even understand how it all started. Maybe it's better not to know at all.
Learning Adventure was basically about sculpting balloons and make stuffs out of it. ISA babes were with us too. Kak Sally was one of them. I could only master flower and sword. The rest, cannot make it. Heh..Forgotten the steps on how to do it lah. We had our very own NDP motivator to teach us so yeah...Nana, Iqah, Dee and Syasya...They are like pro seh..Well, not bad lah..Spent the time taking a nap when there were no students coming and the rest of the time, crapping, making more stuffs..
My Group
Kak Sally's group
Flower Bracelets
My bouquet of flowers
Anyways, Teacher's day was ok. Only like the Dancemania part, esp with Sleeq performing. They are really cool. Their steps are seriously fantastic. It was so synchronised. And that's the reason they won. Heh. The bad thing was we celebrated in the Hall as the Amphi was wet due to the heavy rain. Hence, all the decorations had to be taken down and put up in the Hall instead. It was sucha chore for the SCs. Early in the morning, practically everyone was busy with something. The dudes which I missed badly came down. Even kor. But that one hell of a brother went off without even telling me. Which in turn made me cry. In front of Fai and Ali. Sheesh!! He come quietly and left silently also. Haiss...Disappointed cos not able to spend more time with him.
Oh yeah, before the whole thing started, due to the heavy rain, my handphone got 'drenched' too, like the owner. I got stuck in the heavy rain and had to walk all the way frm mrt to school which is like a 10 min walk. Was practically wet frm head to toe. Left my phone in my bag and I don't know how it got wet. Upon reaching sch, the lights of my phone kinda flickered. Then everything went haywired. That's when I started to 'kan chiong'. Off the bloody phone for like half a day. Met my friend who helped me to send for repair. Luckily, it wasn't too serious. So now, the phone can be use as per normal. Heck.
The ones which I'm missing terribly
First day of work was ok. Like what my good friend said, it's kinda mundane. Pretty lifeless. There's nothing much to do over there. Unlike bedok, there's so many stuffs to be done. Till now, I don't know whether I made the right choice or not. Cos why? It seems there's no difference for my transfer. The person whom I wanted to avoid all along, has also transferred to same place as mine. No doubt I have my brother, the good friend and another friend's company, but that person is there too..So like there's no use at all. Gotta still face him. And for the record, he's working tomorrow and so am I. Good friend and Brother on off day. Goodness..I'm lost..Well, enjoy the weekends.
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Monday, August 21, 2006
I'm very tired..
Tired of PRETENDING
PRETENDING of what is and what's not
Faking each and everyday of my life.
Putting on a mask on each morning when I wake up
A mask which is thinning as day passes by
Then soon, I'll gotta get another new mask.
And do the same old thing, yet again
I wonder, just when can I take off the mask
And be MYSELF.
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Monday, August 14, 2006
Work wasn't sucha disaster during the weekends. With some help from the managers esp Fariza, I managed to pull through the HSBC Nightmare. Customers..What d'ya expect. Same old everyday..Been slacking at the Kopitiam nearby our workplace with the usual peeps for 3 days straight, after work until wee hours of the morning..Talk nonsense, do stupid things, and what do you get when you are in the middle of a group of people who has the same interest?? More and more conversation..Shu yun, Shu shan, Fariza and Aisyah were talking abt Meteor Garden when it was shown on the tv at 1am on Channel U. Gdness...They were so engrossed in talking abt them that me and Aqil just looked at each other, confused. Lol..All the dao ming si lah..Bla bla..Heh...Happy times.
However, things take a different turn upon reaching home. Was talking on the phone with the good friend and told him about the things at work and also this special something which I just gotta know at the Kopitiam..Then he asked the big qn..Was like wondering why..Only then I realised that he actually knew what was happening but he didn't want to tell me. Instead I gotta hear it from someone else. Get what I mean? Was dumbfounded once I heard it from the good friend. Felt like slamming the phone down on him, but did not. I went all quiet for abt a few mins until he claimed that I'm crying...Hell yeah, I was...What can you expect?? Then came all the reasons why he did that and stuffs...Only then, I made up my mind. Msged Mr Bro abt it.
On Sunday, after my break, when all the managers were outside, Abg Aqil told me it's the best time to inform them. Well, with fingers crossed and drumming hearbeats, I went out and told him abt my decision. He appeared pretty calm though. Apologized if any inconvieniences was caused and went back in store. Abg thought I was having second thoughts on it cos I wasn't in a proper working mood. Everything was in my mind...A tornado occupied my little mind. Could not think properly lah..Well, I guess transferring is for the better also. MY OWN GOOD. This is the last period I'm working with MR 'ahem', I guess. Am praying hard for it. The end of a beautiful friendship, I once said.Escaped school again today. Due to the freaking wisdom tooth growing. It hurts badly. Cannot chew food on the left side. What the hacks. It feels swollen also. Oh well..It's normal for wisdom tooth. It's only a matter of time when I'll be out of Bedok. Gonna miss the people there. There's always an ending no matter where we go ain't it...Fariza and Self
Together with Abg Aqil and FarizaYours Truly and Shu Yun
The 3 of us
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Friday, August 11, 2006
National Day in school was ok lah...Nenek and Abg was the emcee..Nenek was so nervous before the whole thing but Abg was cool..As usual lor..The performances were kinda ok also..Most of the SC's were dressed in traditional costumes except for a few, and I was among the few. I just can't be bothered to come to school dressed in Baju Kurung. Like seriously, it's very troublesome. Hence, I was in the usual simple shirt and bermudas and sneakers. Heh...Very very simple and not troublesome!!! It was in red and white too!! So yeah...It's like I'm the western type amongst the traditionals. Lols..Took pictures here and there...Slack around..There were booths selling lotsa stuffs at the Amphi. Bought cookies and brownies frm Haziq and Liana. Then at 12, had the whole SC family pic. Well of course, not all were present that day. So not really the completed version. Thought of hanging out with some mates however, everyone had their own plans. So I headed home straight and had a short nap before going to work.Since it was a public holiday, as usual, busy moments. Helped Ghafur with his orders in the kitchen and was stucked there for the whole period. Went out to dine in a while and helped where ever I could too. After work, went for late dinner with Shu yun and Shu shan. Both of them are like clowns, esp Shu shan. Kept making jokes after jokes hence made us laugh non stop even in the midst of eating!! Had a great time with them though...No matter how stress I am at work, they will surely perk up my mood. I wonder will this month be the last time I hang out with them? I still have not made my decision in transferring or not. I want to transfer yet at the same time I don't want. 50-50. This is extremely hard. 2 more weeks to THE CHALET. Don't feel like going...Cos it's during the school period. Haiss...5 more mths left in school. Am counting down to the days. I'm just so tired of school. So sick to attend lessons. Basically, I AM JUST LAZY. Heh..Ok, till here..Enjoy your weekends!! =)
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'Hari Raya' gathering in SC room =)
People said we look like twins. Do we?? She's my B1 anyway..Lol..
Yours Truly with the Only_us
Just Us
Malay, 'Indian' and 'Eurasian'
Friday, August 04, 2006
TPS CA was kinda tricky lah..But not too bad..Managed to do some of it..Heh..School's been the same day in and out..Gonna have the National Day Celebration in school on Tuesday and guess what, we, the students are ENCOURAGED to wear either traditional costumes or red/white shirt/pants. Gosh...It's not that it's not good or what but it's like for SC, strictly no denims allowed. So how?? I don't even own a bloody red/white pants...Guess gotta buy it just for that one day...Haiss...
Oh anyway, the PSYCHO who broke off the friendship I had with him, a year ago, came back to 'life' a few days back. And so yeah, kept calling and stuffs...Told me I can't go home late, not to mix around with other people, get back home asap after work or school..Like come on lah...YOU ARE NOT EVEN MY FCUKIN BOYFRIEND. WHY THE HELL SHOULD YOU CARE??!!! Seriously lor...Super nonsense lah this guy...Don't understand the term 'I HAVE NO FEELINGS FOR YOU AT ALL'...Keep persisting...People like this ought to be shot..Heh..
Other than that, the current manager found out that I wanted a tranfer hence talked to me about it. Was kinda surprised as to how he knew when he told me the old manager told him about it. Well, I understand the whole situation we're facing right now...I'm not so cruel so as to leave that place in a lurch..I had a hard time deciding about this..But then again, I guess this is just not the right time yet..After things get better there, I'll take my leave..But again, it depends on time..
I've been tagged again.. This time by Kakak Mmbeek..Haiss..
.Do the following without complain
2.Choose 5 bloggers to do this upon completion
3.Leave a tag on the 5 tagboards to announce she has been tagged.
4.Start your entry with "I've been tagged!" then do the following.
I'VE BEEN TAGGED! by Irza
Favourites
colour: White, Blue and Orange
food: Hor fun
song: Punk, Alternative, Ballads
movie: Errmm...Lotr and Harry Potter
sport: Badminton, Cycling and Netball
season: hmms..Sunny plus windy
ice cream: Peppermint and Chocolate chipCurrents
mood: Sleepy
taste: the hotdog I ate 15 mins ago
clothes: Adidas shirt and pants
desktop: This sand thingy which has 'Cookie Monster' on it..
toe nail colour: none
surroundings: dim room with sunlight overlooking it
annoyance: The PSYCHO..Heh
thoughts: I wanna sleep and I wanna get away from that freaking psycho
Firsts
best friend: Marina
crush: Hmms...I think a guy named Hafidz who was my senior in pri sch days??
movie: Power Rangers
lie: Can't remember
music: dunno lah..
Lasts cigarette: ....
drink: pepsi
car ride: yesterday
crush: Mr M
movie: Pirates of the Carribean
phone call: Faizal SC
cd played: This Reggae songs played in SC room
Have I Ever:
dated one of your best friends: yeah i guess...
broken the law: nahs
been arrested: nope
skinny-dipped: same as the above
been on tv: uh huh
kissed someone you dont know: Nahs..Don't think so
5 things you are wearing: Specs, shirt, wrist bands, pants
4 things you done today: school, chatted with Faizal when he came down, took the train to and fro, gossiping with the usual sc mates..Haha..
3 things you can hear right now: the fan, mly song-taman rashidah utama and the keyboard as I typed..
1 thing you do when your bored: sleepSo yeah...The 5 people?? Jannah, Nana yet again..Heh..And Nazurah..
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