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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Thursday, April 14, 2005

After having bad days for the past few days, was feeling kinda relieved yesterday. Well, not really relieved though. Was pretending to be rather. Last night, went to bed early ard 8pm. Was feeling kinda weak and wobbly all over as soon as I reached home. Didn't feel like taking dinner or watch tv. Just headed straight to bed. My plans of watching my chinese drama, The Amazing Race and also soccer match btwn Liverpool and Juventus was gone as I laid in my bed, drifted to sleep. At first, was having kinda hard time to sleep also. But I forced myself. I told myself to just sleep and forget abt nonsensical stuffs that has been around my life and in my mind. I wanna wake up feeling fresh the next day and the next and more to come. I really should have a new life or I'll be getting a lecture again.

Was in school yesterday. Well, was kinda summoned by ppl to come down. Haiss...Nevertheless, I came down willingly. upon reaching there, I saw my brother. He was with his gf. Thought of calling out to him, but nahs....It's been such a while since I talked to him. Esp after that incident. Met my buddy to pass his diskette. He's the Officer-in-charge for this year's speech day parade btw. Wow!! Hahas..He had put in a lot of effort for the parade as I can see. Even though, there were some...well...complications going on..He still stand strong. That's the way he is. Always determined. I admire him for his determination. Again, I saw my brother. This time he was addressing his squad. No chance lah to talk to him. Well, stayed longer to watch the speech day rehearsal. It's gonna be on this friday, tomorrow that is. Won't be able to turn up tomorrow though.

The march past was a thrill. It's great to see all the uniform groups cooperating with each other making a perfect parade. But what excites me the most was the fancy drill done by our very own NPCC. It was something new for this year's SDP. Their theme song was from Bond, explosion. Great one huh..I'd say the cadets gave their all in doing it and they've been practising real hard. Tough on ya guys.. Watched my brotherdoing it. He too, concentrated real hard during the fancy drill. He did it with splendid. Was proud of him. =)

I love the moves from our modern dance. Well, some of them lah..Very nice, slick moves. But I love their theme song the most. Hahas..They'll be having their SYF competition this noon and I will be following them to the Kallang Theatre too. Yeahs...Can't get enough of them..Lols..I just love watching their steps. Oh yeahs, the malay dance too, had cute moves, I'd rather say. The dancers were like jumping2 around...Esp one of the gals whom I know. Due to that, they got a Silver for SYF. Not bad lah hor...

Finally, after everything was over, had the chance to talk to my brother. Was just crapping with my frens outside the staff room when I suddenly saw my brother and his gf again..I then shouted something towards him..Not really shout lah..Just say out loud. I hope his gf won't mind. Hahas..I miss this lil bro of mine really much...He thought I was still mad at him..Haha..I pity him lah..Had been training so heavily that he looked so exhausted. Tsk tsk..Managed to talk for a while only as he gotta sent his gf off. I was contented though. He is also another one who was always by my side, listening to my probs, advising and offering help. He is such a caring and warm-hearted guy. His gf is lucky to have him. I adore the both of them. And I love this brother of mine like my own. He was among one of those who made me realized something. And I appreciate it very much.

Hmms...I shall now have my shower and get ready to meet my fren. We'll be going to school before proceeding to the Kallang Theatre with our 'big sis'. Won't be updating till next week. Will be out of town..I might stay there even longer. I think I wanna try doing things which I can't really do it here, in Singapore. One of my frens know what I mean. Hahas...So ppl, have an enjoyable weekend ya. And pls do take care always.

'In a world torn by change, still with all my heart, till my dying day'.

*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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