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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Thursday, April 07, 2005

And so it's true...It's hard to believe at first but thinking back on the condition, it ought to be happening. Earlier during the day, I asked my friend abt someone's well-being. Well, yeahs..as always, this friend of mine will say the same old thing. "He's fine". There's an addition to it however. My friend told me that 'he' is now working. Where, as what etc, my friend doesn't know. All he knows is that 'he' is working. Am I supposed to be surprised or shocked or what??

Then when nightfall came, I asked another friend of mine to confirmed 'the news'. It proves to be true. They had contacted each other a few days or weeks before and hence my friend knew abt it. I was kinda dumbfounded. I don't know what was rushing through my mind at that point of time. All I know was that I kept thinking of 'his' condition. Yes, no doubt I still care for 'him'.
Now that my mind is slightly clear, all sorts of qns are running through it. There's just so many stuffs that I wanna know. What's happening?

I don't know what happened at home just now. It seems that the ppl at home are kinda pissed off with me..Just what the hack did I do wrong? Sibz are getting from bad to worse..Dad..I don't know...What really went wrong...I have no idea. Here I am tryna solve my own personal thingys, and something else just blast off at home..I'm really really so tired..I don't know if I can hold on any longer.. A new life that I was dreaming to have, came crashing back down.. Can I just live my own life where there's no one to disturbed me?? It's due to this kinda thingys that happened, that makes me wanna have a childhood dream come true. Which is live on my own somewhere else. Migrating for short.

'I would rather be hated for who I am, then to be loved for something I am not'.


*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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10:38 PM

[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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