"I sometimes find I'm driftingWelcome to Chronocube design
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.
Kit McCallum
Oh gosh...I did all this for my own benefit. For my own life. Yes, I know what I did was wrong but I couldn't help it. I have no other way to get away from that person. I've tried telling that person my situation but that person just won't seem to budge. What more can I do?? I ain't brave enough to really TELL that person off. I'm not the kinda person who would want to tell someone off unless it's really crucial. But, I don't know abt this thingy. That person has land me in a state of confusion and depression. This whole thing just sucks!!! What am I to do if that person calls again next week??!!
Problem after problem comes to me...And I'm struggling real hard to solve each and every one of them. I almost thought of going to the police due to this stalker man...I really don't know what more should I do. Life's tough...
'When you lose your edge, the relationship loses its fire'.
*OvEr aNd oUtz*