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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

I saw 'him'!!!!!!!! 'He' was waiting for 28 outside bedok inter as 'he' has just finished sch. I'm not sure whether 'he' noticed me or not. But my friend said 'he' did. Gosh...I just couldn't believe my eyes when I saw 'him'. I was walking right beside 'him'...As in the place where 'he' was sitting. How I miss 'him' so much...If only 'he' knows...It's been so many months since I last saw 'him.

I kinda felt uneasy when we were at bedok giant. I was afraid that I would bump into 'him' as that was the time where 'he' has just finished sch. It was ard 5 plus btw. However, instincts told me that I might really bump into 'him'. When we were sending off our teacher to the train station, my eyes was brought to this particular view and I immediately recognize that it was really 'him'. I was dumbfounded. I started to tremble all of a sudden and I couldn't really breathe properly. My heart was thumping very fast. And I don't know why.

I wished I had talked to 'him'. However, there were just so many stuffs in my mind upon the sight of 'him'. First, I was kinda worried of 'his' reaction towards me. Second, I didn't know what I should say. And lastly, I was again kinda prudent that 'he' would ignore me like it has always been.

After sending that teacher off, I quickly walked away. I left my friends behind. I could hold on no longer. And again..I hate to do this..But I eventually cried. I can't forget the sight of 'him'. Not now or ever. 'His' face just seems to have taken a place within me. Mind, body and soul.
Why must all of the things that I have in my hand slipped away?? Why couldn't I just hold on tight to it?? Damn...I hate myself...Couldn't I at least have another chance to correct everything? I wouldn't want my relationship to end just like that. With no words or anything. I don't want a silent ending..It hurts me deeply.


'Fate brought me to you but it was my heart which told me to love you'.


*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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