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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Nothing's been going on in my life lately..Everything's still the same..Towards the end of the month yet nothing has been proven. I've been thinking to myself lately. I think I'm lying to myself. I'm lying to everyone ard me. Why must I force myself to do this? I really can't do it. I really can't seem to be getting rid of it. Wherever I go, memories lingers within me and I can't stand it. With a gush of wind, those feelings came back at once. Even though I've said that I ain't gonna harbour anymore of it. Why is it so damn freaking tough to let go of the bloody feelings?!

A part of my heart says 'hate' whereas another part says 'love'. It's being divided into 2 feelings. And due to this, I'm pretending to 'hate' when I'm ard ppl but when I'm all alone or tryna find some peace, the 'love' gets within me. I don't wanna be someone of 2 different characters. Yeah..Have been wearing a mask all this while and hoaxing everything to everyone but I can't go on like this, can I?? I don't wanna live in a shadow of 'his'...But it seems that my own shadow keeps pulling me back towards 'his'...I believe that whatever happens is all fate. Can't deny that. It's been quite a few mths..But why is it still so hard for my shadow to let go of 'his'?? I guess, I gotta talk some sense to my shadow huh...

I've came across certain ppl's blog..and it seems that they're kinda in the same boat as me..I kept advising to these kinda ppl, but when it comes to my ownself, I could do nothing abt it.
This is absurd man...How I wish I could start sch soon so as to keep my mind occupied..But to think back, can sch really take my mind of it?? I wonder...


'I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead. Tuned in, turned on, remembered everything you said.'


*OvEr aNd oUTz*


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11:30 PM

[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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