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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

I seriously hate this freaking sch hols esp for the primary schools!!!! The irritating duos are getting on my nerves every single day!! I can't have a peace of mind with the both of them around at the same time. Dammit!!! Super irritating man...I can't help it!! Since the holidays for them started last Saturday, they have been aggravating me every single minute!! They will keep squabbling over small things and it will last for a long period. I mean it!! I've lived with them for almost11 years yet there's no difference in their attitude. Everytime when there's school term hols, I will suffer for how long the duration of the hols is. In this case, it's gonna be one month.

However, I guess, I'm gonna be lucky this time round as my school term will start in abt 3 weeks time. How bouyant can I get!! I'm just waiting to start school so that I won't face them as often as now. I mean, it's not that I don't want to face them, but circumstances make me feel that way. They may be my flesh and blood, but they don't treat or rather respect me as one. As an elder that is. I've always been told to give in to them. I've been giving in to them for countless times yet the treatment that I get really sucks! I don't understand what's with them. Their metabolism rate seems to be of a high voltage!!!

Don't worry, it's not that I hate them to the core. Like I mentioned earlier, circumstances that I'm in, make me really pissed off with their self-being. Is this the result of giving in way too much? I don't know. My dad, cuzs and relatives have been telling me to take it easy and not vent my frustrations on them. Patience is what they told me to instill in myself. That, I have done. My patience is really in control. I don't flare up for no reasons like I used to way back then. Thanks to certain people, I managed to control my anger. But, tell me...With a younger bro shouting at you, making extremely rude remarks and sometimes throwing things at you plus a younger sister who's also getting insolent due to her thinking of a growing up age...How can anyone ever put up with that??!!!

I sometimes cry my heart out as to why this is happening to me. What have I done to gain this kinda treatment? I've told my dad umpteen times about their self-being, but there's still no improvement. In fact, I would sometimes get blamed for civility by either my grandma or relatives. Someone, tell me..Is this fair? You're being accused at something you did not commit. My grandma esp have pampered them too much. Esp my bro. He's like the gem in my grandma's eyes. I don't get it. Why?! It's not that she never scolds him, but after scolding, she will comfort him and then talked to him in a very nice manner. Ya know, the typical grandma's towards their grandchildren.

My bro, on the other hand, has like a split personality. When he's at my grandma's place, he will behave extremely well and not create a havoc. Like an angel, I would rather say. However, when he's at home...The chaos he created is seriously unbearable. Well, my sis is not too much of a problem. But I don't know why she has become so impertinent nowadays. Same goes as my bro, she will shout at the slightest thing. I don't know what has brought about the change in her. She wasn't like this before. I've asked her a reason for the change of behavior but in silence she remain. It's either she doesn't want to tell me or she herself is undergoing a mutation. Only she has the answer to herself.

I'm getting tired of being the giver always. Due to having giving in too often, it has already been instilled in me. I will keep giving in to others at the slightest things. Maybe what my friend said is true..Because of I have been giving in, that particular thingy happened. And it is now 'accomplished'. Yes, mission 'accomplished', I must say. Well, about those duos, I don't know when will things ever change. I don't want them to grow up to become very ill-mannered people.
I'm seriously hoping that things will get better by the day. Obviously, they won't convert overnight. It might take months or even years..Well, I guess I still gotta be patient, ain't it?? There's nothing more I can do.

'Life is full of obstacles and we gotta do our best to overcome it'.


*OvEr aNd oUTz*


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Saturday, May 28, 2005

Just came back from a campfire at school. It was the Guides and Scouts Campfire. Had quite some fun. It's been a long long time since I last had my campfire. I love campfires and stuffs...It's really really enjoyable. Get to scream, shout, jump and do all the activities together. I miss those moments. Will there be any campfires in ITE, Poly or even Uni?? Hahas..The whole event was a fantastic one. Even our teachers and guests of honours joined in the fun. The better lot was of course the students. They came from various schools. They were very sporting!! Danced around and did things as if there's no one else there..

Obviously, I loved the performances by our very own students. The NP also participated. They performed a dance with 'Jerk it out' as their theme song. Was kinda groovy and cute..haha..That was used in the campfire held at Junyuan Sec which was choreographed by Ashraf. A job well done, I must say. Then came the guides with 'Lose my breath' and 'Asmaradana'. Both was seriously well performed. I love them..Haha..Other schools also took part. Damai Sec with their break-dancing and there were this team which danced to the 70s beat, I think. It's the 'That thing you do'. These people are really good in dancing..

But most of all, I got to meet my beloved bro which I haven't seen nor talked to for months and I'm missing him real bad. When I arrived there, I saw the Np cadets hence I started to look out for him. However, after looking everywhere, he wasn't in sight. About a few mins later, I noticed him going to the toilet. How exuberant I was!!! Finally, when he came out of it, I called out to him and yay!!! Haha...Started talking and stuffs. I'm kinda worried for this lil bro of mine..His O levels are drawing nearer and his MT paper will be on Monday. Tsk...Gosh...Things have changed for him. I'm hoping that everything will go well for him in any situation.

And oh yeah..As I was on my way to the MRT, I again saw 'him'. 'He' was talking with 'his' group of friends. Even though 'his' back was facing the place where I walked, I could still recognize 'him' easily. Oh wells...I guess we're becoming strangers now..

And so the campfire ended around 9pm. Then decided to crap and crap with my friend, 3/4. Talked about lotsa stuffs...We were just yakking and yakking away...Haha...Wanted to meet 'Mum' just now but she had went off. Managed to say 'hi' to her cute lil son, Akmal. He's really really cute, ya know..He's only Primary One yet his English is damn fluent. Well, his mother is an English teacher mah..Even my sibz english ain't that good. I admire him for that. Haha...
Shall end here then..Take care people!!

'Life is not measured by the number of breaths you take'.

*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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Thursday, May 26, 2005

They did it!!!! After so many years, they bounced back to clinch the UEFA Champion Cup!!! Yes, I'm talking about my all time fave football club, LIVERPOOL!!!!!!!! Yay!!!! I was jumping for joy when they finally won the game. The best thing was Liverpool proved one of my 'bro' WRONG!!

I must admit however, during the first half of the game, they didn't really played well. The situation was kinda chaotic. Couldn't really defend or attack properly. I was kinda pissed off at first. Milan managed to score easily during the first half. They managed to score as early as the first min by Maldini. That really shocked me. I had already lost all hopes when they scored the third goal just before half-time. Thought of just going to sleep instead like what my 'bro' suggested over his sms. We were practically sms-ing each other during the match. Haha...

However, I decided to stayed on and watch till the game ends. Gosh!! I seriously couldn't believe it when Liverpool fought their way back and shot three goals within a seven mins range!! And that means a DRAW!! Yeah!! Was rejoicing at their goals. Even though I watched the match alone in my dark living room, I was enjoying myself! Haha..Fun lah...But, I couldn't really scream or shout cos that will wake my dad and siblings up. The power has risen, like what I told my 'bro'. Haha...I guess he couldn't believe it either..He didn't reply to my msgs after that. Haha...This time, I was confident but still a lil nervous for Liverpool to get the Cup.

The match was really really long..They played for almost 3 hours. Tsk3..I was glad that Milan couldn't scored any goals during the second half, no matter how hard Shevcenko tried. Carragher defended quite well, I must say. An additional 30 mins meant another nervousness..I couldn't sit still during the last 30 mins. Haha..Again, no one from either team managed to score. Well, that means a penalty shoot-out. This, again...I was biting my nails when it comes to this kinda situation. Dudek did very proficiently in safe-guarding his goal post from any scores from Milan. When the last ball from Shevcenko was again being deflected by Dudek, I was exhilarated!!!

As that means that Liverpool is the winning team for this year's UEFA!!! Man, it really feels good to clinch back that trophy. It was worth it. I sacrificed my sleeping hours just to watch them win. I'm sure the fans from all over the world were feeling ecstatic the moment Gerard held the Cup. Well, I sure was one of them. Haha...My 'bro', whom I mentioned earlier said that Milan will win the cup by 3-1. Now, now...There had been a twist!! The best team always win!! My 'bro' was wrong!! And I like that! Haha...My fave team got the title and not Milan. Wooooohooooooooooo!!!!!! It was seriously damn great. You'll Never Walk Alone!!

Well, just when my bro was getting ready for school and dad was in shower, I crept into bed. Slept at 630am and woke up at 430pm. By the time, my dad had already come home from work. Haha..Couldn't believe it. Was feeling sleepy but satisfied. =)

Oh yeah, I received a letter from the instituition just now. It seems that the course that I appealed for wasn't successful as the response was over-whelming hence, they couldn't take me in. Oh well...Guess I just gotta be stuck at another instituition for 2 years then.

And yeah, my friend told me that Carrie Underwood won the American Idol this year!! Another Yay for me!!! I was rooting for her since her audition time and now....Fuuuh...She's become the next American Idol!!! I have 2 delights for today!! Haha..Well, I shall watch the show later on at night..


'Great moments are born with great opportunities'

*OvEr aNd OuTz*


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Monday, May 23, 2005

Well, well...I've found another victim who's hurt in love..That is none other then my close friend,2/4. It seems that guys these days are kinda fickle-minded huh...They seem to fall in love that easily..Is it true guys?? Well, I mean..It's so easy for them to express out their feelings towards certain gals. However, not all guys mean what they really said. Well, I can't blame the guys either, can I?? They have their own rights to choose their own partner. But, at least don't give hopes towards the gal. Isn't it better that way? So as not to hurt the gal deeper...

One moment, the guy said "I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU, I CAN'T STOP THINKING OF YOU" bla bla bla...The next instant, "I'M SORRY BUT THE LOVE I HAD FOR YOU IS GONE" kinda sentence was being said. Like what the hack is goin on man??!! Or rather when the guy's ex wants a patch-up, the guy readily agreed without thinking of the gal's condition whom he had expressed his love to. Yeah, I know not all guys are like that. But seriously, if let's say in this situation, the guy intended to patch it up with his ex, he shouldn't enunciate the fact that he loved the gal ain't it...It's just..It's not nice to do that. He gave the gal false hope towards him. Just don't create the opportunity for something to happen if you aren't ready to allow it to happen. He shouldn't have played with the gal's feelings. Yeah, yeah..I know some of ya would say that gals also do that..Yeah, no doubt about that. I can't run away from the fact that gals do play with guys' feelings.

I'm tryna neutralise the whole thing that I'm talking about here..Hence, I should say...All of us and I really mean ALL of us should do some soul-searching with matters concerning the heart. As in LOVE. To be precise, LOVE between a guy and a girl. Being in a relationship ain't easy, I know that. We need to be honest with each other about our feelings and such..Therefore, it's kinda crucial for couples to sit and talk about what has been going on with the relationship. To get a clearer view of it, I must say.

If one of us don't feel right about the on-going relationship, then I reckon, it's better to call it off, rather then lead each other on. I've had it before. And I seriously don't wish for it to happen again, be it towards myself or anyone of y'all. It is a good thing for couples to sit and talk about it. That will help to strengthen the bonds between them. Sadly, it doesn't work for me. The bond that I had, flew away sooner than I thought. And, I reckon, it can never be brought back.
I guess, it's true what people said of the saying, "If it's meant to be yours, it will be, no matter how long it takes". Maybe love is sweeter the second time round. Maybe, just maybe..


"Love is a word that comes and goes but few people know what it means to really love somebody".


*OvEr aNd oUTz*


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Friday, May 20, 2005

It's weird how I still dream of 'him' even though we're already through...These dreams have been playing in my mind for 2 consecutive days...I don't know why is it so. I wasn't thinking of 'him' during the day or even at night..But how come, 'he' came in my dreams??

I gotta take it in my stride that 'he' has a new partner. I know that. I've been trying to act as though nothing happened. Or rather things have changed. For the better, I reckon. I'm not suppose to live in the shadow of the past. And I know that. People have been telling me to move on and yes, I am doing just that. But why the hell do I still dream of 'him'??!!! That I can't explain. I just don't understand why. Maybe it takes time for me to fully forget everything..Yeahs, MAYBE. However, I hope that I am able to forget everything soon. Cos I can't stand it anymore..Oh wells...


Remembering you

I still remember my first love,
It seemed like a gem so beautiful
But I was afraid of its pure potency
Wondering if the end would be painful


That splendid light on my innocent world
Right from your sweet embracing smile
Asking me thoroughly in a warmth

Lingering in me for a long while

Your words that fondled my heart,
Pleading for me to open up and receive
Your tender touches and your graceful ways,

Desiring for my sweet devotion to yield and give

But as brightly and suddenly as any first love,
You had to fade away, and I had to let go
Once again alone, in my own world,

Trying to mend from this blow

I still remember my first love
It seemed like a gem so beautiful
But I was afraid of its pure potency
Because in the end, it was indeed painful.



*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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Monday, May 16, 2005

Finally, yesterday was the long-awaited day. Was my niece's birthday and had quite a celebration. Well, a start to her journey, she turns 1. She looks so adorable and pretty wearing the white gown, the one which is always being used in marriages. I seriously love her to the max!!! Haha...

And yesterday was also the time where all the cousins gathered. I had a great time mingling with all of them. They are the greatest bunch of people. Whenever we are together, there will be lotsa stories to be shared. Hence, all the noise and laughters were kinda disturbance to others. But yesterday it was a happy occasion so there was no harm in sharing the joys and laughters with everyone around. They are the ones whom I give my love to for there's no one else who can ever take their places. Even though, yesterday I was the only girl cousin around, I seriously enjoyed myself being in the midst of the guys. Well, I've always been around these guys since I was born. The elder ones showered me with care and concern whereas the little ones always make me laugh.

I had fun helping out my niece's mum, which is my elder cousin, too!!! Besides cutting the cake, giving out the birthday bags, there were loads more which I kept myself busy with. Haha..Till my dear cousin, Fir, had to actually wait for nearly an hour to crap with me. He wanted to eat together with me, but again, I was busy. Wanted to talk to me, again..I was busy. Haha..I pity him lah for waiting for so long. But nevertheless, we did eventually hang around and start the crappy-ness. Haha..

Oh yeah, there were lotsa and I really mean LOTSA babies or rather lil kids yesterday. Gosh!!! Hence the house was in total chaos. Kids screaming, crying, making noise...It can all be heard yesterday. Having lil kids around make the ocassion more livelier. All of them were really really cute and sweet and handsome. I just felt like pinching each one of them's cheeks. Haha...

However, the cutest,sweetest, and the most beautiful one amongst all was of course, the birthday girl, my dear beloved niece. The feeling of having her around me is just sooooo...I don't know how to describe it but seriously, like the Johnson advertisement thingy, having a baby indeed changes everything. I love playing and teasing with her, carry her here and there and listening to her cries. All these are really a moment of jubilation. I seriously feel blissful having her around me.

Well, enough talk about babies etc, I guess..Haha..And oh yeah..Today is my 2 lil cousin's birthday..They've turned 14 and 17 respectively. Turning into a young man. Well, Happy Birthday cousins!!!


'Desires are without boundaries. To be loved is always a bless'.


*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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Saturday, May 14, 2005

Love or Infatuation??


Lust, simply is Infatuation. It is purely physical attraction. Friendship that develops into desire for each other is Love. Infatuation is like those fast food packages, which you get in the market. It looks oh-so-delicious but has little nutrition value.
Love is like homegrown, homemade food... which you take care right from the time it grows on your farm and then go all the way. You have your emotions, feelings and caring nurturing it every day.

Love is the mature acceptance of imperfection. Do you know all his/her shortcomings and still find him/her attractive emotionally, intellectually, and physically? Nobody's perfect, we are all humans not Gods; but of course you don't have to accept everything...we are all different people with different expectations...there are a few adjustments you can make and some you simply cant!

When you are truly in love, long distances do make you want to be near each other but that doesn't lessen your love for each other. Infatuation on the other hand makes you look for some other excitement in place of the one you have. Infatuation lacks confidence. When he/she is away, you doubt if he's cheating. Sometimes you even play the detective and check! Love is trust. You feel calm, secure and so sure of yourself. Both of you feel that trust and it makes you respect and love each other even more than ever.

Love grows from friendship. You are friends and then you become lovers. Infatuation might lead you to do things you'll regret later, but remember love never will.
Love makes you look and think up. It makes you want to be a better person than you are now. So, think about it...are you truly in love or is it just a momentary crush?


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If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices; either tell whatyou feel and let the love take place or hidethe feeling under a friendship full ofpretensions.
It's hard for two people to love each other whenthey live in two different worlds but when thesetwo worlds collide and become one, that's whatyou call magic!

Love can never be so beautiful without friendship.One leads to another and the process is irreversible. The best of lovers is the greatestof friends!I like you because you're my friend, and becauseyou are my friend I care, and because I care, I love you. I don't love you because you are my friend, I love you because I do!

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else, I get what I want. Then I realized it was YOU, too bad 'cause it's you i can't have. I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who chooses to love me.

And you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me, so I'll let you go findhim/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free.

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love was never mine?"

Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else.

Food for thought, think of this:
Have you really cared for someone more than you expected?
Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of allthe pain?
Will you keep on loving him/her as he/shewhispers someone else's name?
Will you?

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride. When you love someone, don't expect that person to love you back the same amount. One of you will be ahead, the other behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits.

When you love, you must not accept anything inreturn,
for if you do, you're not loving but Investing.
If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using.

True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained,
for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but inthe heart...
Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay the harder it is to leave and you can never go without leaving your prints behind.

Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season.
Love them like a river because a river flows forever. Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'cause love doesn't have to end at all..

Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains,
but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance.
Love may leave your heart like shattered glass,but keep in mind that there's someone who'll bewilling to endure the pain of picking up thepieces so you could be whole again.

The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall! And fooling around with her feelings like they meant nothing!!!


Thursday, May 12, 2005

Damn!!! I seriously don't know what the hack did I do wrong to receive that kinda treatment...Just what are my mistakes?? I don't understand the whole situation...Are you hating me now?? Do you actually hate me so damn much?? Why is it so?? May I know the real reason??

I never hated you and I won't ever hate you...I appreciate the times we spent together and all..I had the chance of going the extra mile with you even it wasn't for long...I was glad abt it...Well, the only sad thing was things didn't work out between us hence we went our separate ways even though it wasn't a clear pic...I was so damn stubborn to keep holding on even though I know I'm losing it all...It took me months to realize that we were actually separating...
No doubt, at first it was hard for me to handle..It was hard for me to swallow everything besides other stuffs that was revolving ard me during that time..Devastated I was..

Well, I can't force you ain't it..I understand that you're now with someone else..I ain't gonna come between you guys...I'm trying to come to terms that I've lost..I can just hope that we could still be friends...I wish the best of luck for you...Take care of yourself always...


'Love is like a cigarette, which starts with a fire and ends in ashes'.


*OvEr aNd oUTz*


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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

FINALLY..I KNOW THE TRUTH!!! IT HAS COME TO LIGHT AFTER LOTSA WAITING...

Damn..I should have known right from the start...I should have listened to my bro and girlfriend back then. No matter how he mocked me, how hard he tried to knock some sense into me, I still didn't listened to him...Man...I should have accepted the fact..But no, I didn't. I was being persistent in knowing it. How foolish was I!!! I should have believed them when they told me all abt it..


Well..I shall now move on...I'm gonna be the way that I was years back..Well, not attitude wise of course...Will try to make some changes to myself..haha...Hmms...Gotta be positive abt it ain't it..I should ignore all these happenings ard me right?? Hmms...Ok, fine..Since it has started to be that way..I shall follow your way...

Shoots!! Can't blog now...My msn is ringing non stop..People msn-ing me, wanting to talk...Haiss..So shall be back next time..When I've straightened out my thinking that is...
All the best to you aytes..!!!! I'm glad we were once friends...


'It's me who found love, yet lost it'.


*OvEr aNd oUTz*


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Sunday, May 08, 2005

Well, well, well....Happy Mothers' Day to all the mums or mum-to-be!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is a day for all the mums in the world. We should recognize their effort in nurturing us to become what we are today. It's thanks to them we're here, standing tall in this world..Well, people..Have a fun time celebrating this day with your mums yeah...Do cherish every moment you have with your mum. No matter what wrongdoings they've done towards you, forgive and forget. Afterall, they are they ones who gave birth to you. It's a pity I couldn't get to celebrate it again...Haiss...


My right hand is freaking sore after a game of badminton with my sibz, dad and my beloved cousins...It's been like months since I played it hence the crampness...Cannot tahan man..I couldn't really lift my hand after the game..Nevertheless, I enjoyed playing it..Haha..Ok, so I heard that one of my uncle has been admitted to the hospital..Asked my cousins but they have no idea why or which hosp..Man..I guess, I getta know abt it later IF I go to my aunt's place that is. She called earlier on and asked the four of us to come over to her house...Well, a get-together for mothers' day, I reckon..Hmmms...I don't know if it's appropriate for us to go there...Well, things might be the same as it always has been...Depends on my dad lahs whether he wants to go or not...

I wonder how did my friends soccer match went earlier in the morning...Their match were held at Teck Ghee CC, I think..Hmms...Shall ask my bro later at night...It was already raining when I woke up that is 15 mins to 12pm. My dad's call woke me up..Drats..Am still feeling sleepy now..
The weather nowadays are cool...Bright and sunny one moment, raining cats and dogs the next...Ain't it great...Such coolness are meant to be slept in...Hence, I shall do just that now...=)


'Life is like a plate. Full of different flavours'.


*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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Saturday, May 07, 2005

INCOMPLETE


Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess


I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete


Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake


I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete


I don't mean to drag it on,
But I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go [alone]


I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete


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Thursday, May 05, 2005

One of my fave songs is being played. Matchbook Romance---> PROMISE.
This is a word which I really don't favour most..Am always trying to refrain myself frm sayin that word as far as I'm concerned with regards to certain things. However, it's me who gets played ard by ppl..Oh well..Promises are just words...

Oh yeah...It's my sister's birthday today!!!! We're gonna celebrate it later during the day..At night that is...She's turned 11 years old....How time flies..She's gonna take her PSLE next yr...Fuuhh...Kinda worried for her man..Haiss...

And yeah...I saw someone's sis in law yesterday, on my way home...Well, she noticed me and smiled at me. Hence, I decided to acknowledge her and talk a lil bit..Yeahs...Well, me being the friendly kinda gal immediately asked her to...Well...send my regards to someone...I was used to it, ya see..I mean, whenever I saw someone I know, I will tell them to send regards to a certain someone which the both of us know..So, I did just that. Without me realizing it. After she walked off, then I realized..Well, maybe I shouldn't have asked her to do that huh...But..On the other hand, I don't think it's wrong to do so either, right? Oh well...Just hope that that someone accepts it lah...


'Happiness is a form of courage'.


*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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Wednesday, May 04, 2005

LIVERPOOL DID IT!!!!! THEY ARE GOING TO THE FINALS!!!!!!!!!! AND CHELSEA'S NOT!!!!!!!!!! YAHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The hours I've sacrificed watching the match was worth it...hahaha....I feel good..
Gotta see who shall Liverpool compete against in the finals..Might be Milan...We shall see...
Once again,
LIVERPOOL IS IN THE FINALS!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA.....


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1:12 PM

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

I went to a wedding on Sunday and on Monday. These are 2 different weddings. The one on Sunday is my elder cousin. Well, wasn't as fun as always as I was the only one from her side. So I was there from like morning till abt 3 in the noon. People there were like looking at me in a very confused kinda state. They don't know who am I nor have seen me before, that's the reason. Oh well...I just hope the family complications going on will be solved as soon as possible..

Her wedding is different from the weddings I've attended so far. It's kinda tough for me to explain it here hence I'll skip that part. But one thing for sure is that, it has made me realize something. Marriage is a lifetime commitment. It's something which people wanna do. Getting married changes everything. Yeahs, it ties us down. But it's a good thing. I mean we get to spend quality time with our spouse. The feeling of being married is just.....It's difficult for me to explain as I've never been married before. Well, whatever it is..I realized also that LOVE is important. Having someone who you love or loves you changes everything.. Don't ya guys think so??

As for the wedding on Monday, it was an Indian wedding. Well, Indian Muslim I should rather say. However, it was completed with all the indian measures...Well, the 'berkat', surroundings etc...Ya know those thingys..Those were the indian measure I was talking abt...It was fun though, getting to know different types of wedding..Knowledgeable..

I'm running out of words now...Shall be here next time...


'The candle that burns twice as bright burns half as long'.


*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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