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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Sunday, June 05, 2005

And so, it's June..Gosh, it's been weeks or months I'm living with this kinda lifestyle. As in slacking at home, doing nothing, sleeping in the morning and waking up in the evening. No, no...That is so not healthy!! But, what can I do? I can't seem to shut my eyes to fall to dreamland at 10pm. I've been sleeping late every single day because I can't fall asleep easily. This has been going on since January. Has been going on for 5 mths. Well, I'm sure things will get better once I start school.

Talking of school, I'm left with 2 more weeks to enjoy this 'pleasureable' lifestyle. On the first thought, I felt great. I mean, won't have to stay at home doing absolutely nothing except surfing the net and reading. However, after thinking again...Man, it's gonna be the starting of suffering..I can't really enjoy long holidays like now or can't sleep for longer periods. Starting 20th June, gotta change my timetable or rather my sleeping habit. I gotta wake up the usual time which I woke up when I was in Sec Sch, and that is 6am. Shoots!! I thought that I could now wake up at least slightly later than usual but..Damn..Wrong!! The same old routine has to be done. Wake up at 6am and get out of the house by 630am. Haiyo...Then will be back later in the evening. I might be having a companion to school this time. But, that depends on his timetable. If he's going to school at 630am, then I can go along with him. Well...See how lah..


Everything's gonna change. New school, new friends, new environment, new timetable..Everything will be brand new. I'm not sure whether I like this feeling or not. It's not that I don't wanna let go of the past. If I had a choice, I would not even want to have that kinda past. On the other hand, the past memories are just too precious to be thrown away. Moreover, it's the past that has brought me to the present. Without a past, there can never be a present. I'm gonna miss everything that was in the past. I can't keep looking backwards. I gotta march forward. I wonder how is life gonna be in a new place. Will I get the same people who care for me like now? Will I be able to adapt to it? Time will tell everything..
I gotta go buy my uniform and stuffs on the 14th. It's kinda terrible where you have to travel from the east to the north, back and forth, every single day. The thought of that just irks me. Haha..But what to do? I can't get a transfer.

I'm looking forward to this 19th. My beloved Thai bro will be coming back!!!! And there'll be a chalet!!! And that means the rest of my bros will be there too!! Yayness!! I can't wait for it to happen. L, T, E, G, A, J, H, F, J. I miss the whole lot of them soooooooooooo much. Just the other day, one of bro, asked, "Nisa, do you miss me? Cos I miss you lah.." Haha...So sweet lah this bro of mine..He's the sun of my life. Well, ever since shits happen..I turned to my bros every now and then. They urged me to get on with life and such. I can't do without them. They've done so much for me. It's like a bro who wants the best for his lil sis. That's how I am towards them. The same bro who asked me the above qn even wants to transfer and accompany me in my new school. HE has granted me such beautiful people whom I adore and love them to bits. I've always wanted an elder bro. But, I was the eldest. Haha..However, 4 years ago, these people came into my life and thus, treated me like one of them. I am gonna meet them soon!!! I'm loving it...Lols..

It's gonna be a new chapter of life soon. I've already got the conclusion to the old story. And I'm now ready to create a brand new one. New characters, new venues. Gotta have a different perspective too. Well, gonna end here. I'm having a terrible cramp now and I've just ate 2 tabs of panadol. Gotta have some rest. So long...

'The secret of good life is to have the right loyalties and hold them in the right scale of values'

*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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