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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

In lab right now...My class advisor is talking about GPA and stuffs...Saying that passing a module is not that difficult. He very 'merepeks' lor...He talk, talk, talk then he laughed himself. Only he understands his own jokes. The rest don't. Haha...CA is coming soon..Well, right after this I'll be having my BZF mini test. Test, test and more test..Arrggghhh!!!

Oh yeah, I'll be having an Inter-Department Netball Tournament later this afternoon!!! How cool is that!!! It's been sucha a long time since I had a competitive match. However, I'm having blisters on my feet and it really hurts lah ok...!! I reckon, I just gotta do my best and show good sportsmanship during the game..

My Class Advisor is laughing at his own jokes again...I don't understand him lah..Haha...Don't know how to make jokes, I think..Lols..

As for now, I'm in a dilemma. Confused state again...I don't know why I'm feeling this way..I don't wanna elaborate on it but I'm sure 1/4 knows what I'm talking about...And yeah..Ya know the 'lad' which I mentioned in the previous entry, the one who decided to break off our friendship...?? Guess what..He called me back a last week and last night while I was waiting for a bus on the way back home from work...Hahahahahahaha.....He's full of bullsh*t lah!!! I've totally forgotten about him since the day he broke off our friendship...Then now, he's the one who came looking for me...Like what the hack sia...!!! He said he regretted saying all those stuffs to me..Hahaha...See?? This is what happens when you talk before you think...

Aytes..Shall continue again some other time..Gotta go for my next lesson already....Take care all...

*OvEr aNd oUt*


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8:23 AM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Greetings to all!! Woah...It's been such a long time huh...What's happening man..I used to have so much free time to blog but things changed drastically. Haha...Well, basically..Been busy with school, assignments and stuffs...Moreover, I've started working a week ago, hence my time management skill is affected...There's just so many stuffs to do but so little time. I'm really struggling to complete every single thing every day before I end my day with a sleep. But that will only be around 1 am in the morning.

No doubt I am freakingly tired but like I said before, circumstances made me go to these measure. However, I'm enjoying my life now. Serious!! I haven't been so light-hearted and elated for such a really long period. No matter how hectic life is for me now, I'm enjoying every bit of it. Be it school or work, the feeling is just so great. I have fantastic friends in school and superb colleagues at work..All of them are an incredible bunch of people..I seriously adore each and everyone of them..!!

Talking about work, those people at work made me feel so welcome on the first day of work. Well, initially I would just keep to myself as I don't know them yet but as time passes by, I got to know them eventually and soon enough, we've built that relationship amongst each other. I even got a nickname at my work place. Just because of that freakin 'Botak' aka 'Penyu' lah...Now, even my manager calls me by that name...Only those working there know what's my alias...Haha...I enjoyed being with all types of customers..From fussy ones to troublesome and irritating ones...This experience is a real eye-opener for me. I no longer stay in the shadow of my past and I've opened up more..

I'm beginning to get more crazier than ever too..Well, that's because I'm surrounded by crazy but adorable people around me!! However, I do miss those times when I went home straight after school and sleep, be online for hours, watch my chinese dramas etc...Today, is my off day after working about nearly a week. Finally!! Hence, got the time to surf the net, check mails and stuffs like that...

Last time, I used to have insomnia..Hard to get to sleep. Now, lack of sleep is what I have. I will be very sleepy during my school period and hence tried to take short naps in between lessons. Haha...What kinda student am I man...Lols...Soon enough, I will be having my CA. For my ACF and BZF...Damn, I hardly have time to study yet it's gonna come in abt 2-3 weeks time..Helppppp!!!! I gotta buck up on my studies huh...I'll be having a mini test this coming Friday too, for BZF...Haiyoo...Gonna study later...But on second thought, I'm darn sleepy now...I think I shall have an early night today...Tsk tsk..

On a short note, to all my friends be it bros or sis...I miss every single one of you!!!! I miss the times we spent together, crappin and joking and stuffs...I MISS ALL OF YOU!!!! Take care always!!!

'Man is the artificer of his own happiness'


*OvEr aNd oUtz*



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7:50 PM

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Hey all.. Been experiencing such a busy week and there's more to come. It's the end of week 3 now. And I think I'm beginning to love my new life. I've met such great friends there and fantastic lecturers..Well, except for one module ah..Haha..That lecturer is kinda...Weird..Maybe that's the correct term to use. Lols..Well, I think those in my class know as to who I'm referring to..However, he's cool. Relaxed. Hahaha..

The timetable is also kinda flexible. The only thing is that we have to be there early morning and that really sucks lor..I often do not have enough sleep and as a result, I will fall asleep easily..Esp during ACF lesson..But I'll have to finish my assignments first, only then will I be allowed to take a nap. Gereks right..Haha...Seriously, I think I've been granted what I want after all those months..Ya know..Those sickening months when I was depressed and stuffs..Now, it's all over for me..I'm really enjoying this new chapter of my life. With those crazy friends I've just made for barely a month, why should I stress myself with something that's not worth it right?

I'm feeling just fine like before..I mean like back then when I wasn't attached to anyone..As for now, those lovey-dovey feelings are not there..I've totally lost that sense of feeling..However, I'm sure time will prove it. It's just a matter of time as to when I'll regain that feeling back...Oh wells...

I'll be reporting to work this coming Monday... A new job I'll be doing. I know I'm gonna be very tired, studying and working at the same time. I'll be outta house in the morning ard 6 plus but I'll only be back home ard 11 plus at night..And that will go on...Circumstances made me go to this measure..Haiss...I can only pray and hope that situations will improve slowly..

Right now, I'm having a really bad stomach cramp...It always happen. Just the other day, I suffered a major gastric pain and it sucks...Shoots..Take care and have a nice weekend..

'The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want'


*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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Sunday, July 03, 2005

Audioslave-Be Yourself

Someone falls to pieces
Sleeping all alone
Someone kills the pain
Spinning in the silence
She finally drifts away
Someone gets excited
In a chapel yard
And catches a boquet
Another lays a dozen
White roses on a grave
Yeah
And be yourself is all that you can do, yeah
To be yourself is all that you can do
Someone finds salvation
In everyone
Another only pain
Someone tries to hide himself
Down inside himself he prays
Someone swears his true love
Until the end of time
Another runs away
Separate or united
Healthy or insane
Yeah
And be yourself is all that you can do
[all that you can do]
To be yourself is all that you can do
[all that you can do]
To be yourself is all that you can do
[all that you can do]
To be yourself is all that you can do
Even when you’ve paid enough
Been put upon, or been held up
With every single memory of
The good or bad, faces of luck
Don’t lose any sleep tonight
I’m sure everything will end up alright
You may win or lose
But to be yourself is all that you can do, yeah
To be yourself is all that you can do, oh [x3]
[all that you can do]
And to be yourself is all that you can
To be yourself is all that you can
Be yourself is all that you can do



I'm falling in love with this song right now. But I can't seem to find the codes of it. It's just so true. A meaningful one, I must say. Be your trueself is the best. This song has started me to think maturely I would say. I mean I think better now. I used to think on the negative sides. However, this song sorta changed my perspective on something. Hmmms...Certain songs do make us think deeply ain't it??


*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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9:30 PM
It feels funny when someone calls you a teacher when you're not even a certified one yet. Haha...My weekends are no longer the same right now. Have to wake up early morning, to teach. Darn sleepy I am, but my responsibility has to be done somehow. But lucky for me, I only have to travel to Bedok Resevoir and not further destinations. Heading to Bedok Res. brings me back to my past. My childhood past, to be exact. The surroundings, the facilities etc..It feels great to be back in the past...Well, sometimes. And depends on what kinda past lah hor...

It's been such a long period of time since I went there. There's no reason for me to go there so why should I right? The memories with my family, my relatives and dear cousins are just adorable. I kept smiling and shaking my head when I was in the bus yesterday, heading home. I just miss the atmosphere of my childhood.

Well, yesterday was the first day I taught. Initially, I thought the lil kid was kinda rebellious, however, after I start teaching him, he's easily coaxed. A bright student he is. He always got a right for almost every answers. It wasn't really difficult teaching him. I think I'm beginning to love this. Afterall, this the first step towards being a real teacher. This experience will definitely help me. I guess, now I feel the burning desire to be serious in achieving my dreams.

I'm thinking of working part-time as well. Expenses are getting higher by the day with certain prices going up. I can't let my dad handle all those stuffs esp when it's me myself who needs it. My friend has reccommended one but it requires one to be 18 years of age. And I'm still 17. Will be legal in 3 month's time. I don't think I can afford to wait that long..Hmmms...Well, anyone has any job to offer?? Lols...

'Life isn't always a smooth sailing'


*OvEr aNd oUtz*


[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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