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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

First and foremost, Happy Teachers' Day to all the teachers...All your hardwork in educating us is recognized and we truly appreciate it..
The teachers' day celebration in school was a blast!!! The performances were way too cool...Esp the B plus G..The trio sang Taufik's One Last and they did great..My heart melts upon hearing them sing. Haha...They really do have talent in singing. The dance moves by Silver something [can't really remember the whole name] was superb. Their bodies were like so flexible seh..!! Really power to the max..!!! My BZF lecturer even won the 'Mr Sporting' Award. And my Class Advisor was nominated as 'Mr Congeniality'. How cool is that??!!! Haha...

Ok, so I had my BZF CA on Tuesday and it was considered ok. At least a lil bit easier than the mock test. But I know I won't be getting full marks though. The facts of business ethics were all jumbled up in my cramped mind. Hopefully, I'll pass that test. I'll be having my ACF CA next week. Gosh...Accounts just freak me out man..I haven't even completed all the assignments and my CA is like next week?? Haiyoo...I'm sooo left out on these things.

Apart from that, work's ok. Except that I can't really get along with one bloody rider..He's like so freaking uncouth and he acts as though he owns the restaurant. Like hellos?? You're like me. An employee. So don't go around and keep yelling at people who's not in the wrong and worse thing, keep calling people names..!!! Just because you're big-sized, it doesn't mean you can push others around. Irritating bastard!!! Sorry for being so vulgar but I just can't help it. Other than that, everything else is fine. With that crazy manager of mine and wacky colleagues, things couldn't get any better.

As for private life, I don't know whether what I'm doing now is right or not. By being kinda close to someone that is. It's like I don't want to give that someone an impression that I accept that someone in my life but I don't want to ruin this newly built friendship either. I just want us to stay as friends. But on the other hand, something tells me otherwise. And that is to give a chance to that someone. But that's a nonsensical thing to do!!! Gosh..I'm confused man..Oh wells, I'm always in a dilemma, am I not?? Am I again gonna let time prove everything? Must we always rely on time alone??

Aaaanyways...Just wanna wish Happy 18th Birthday to my 3/4!!! =)

'Beliefs are what divides people. Doubt unites them'


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11:16 PM

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Was it a mistake for me to be in that school?? Or is it actually me myself?? I can't figure things out properly...Who must be blame? Myself? Or past experience? I used to despise them a lot last time, but it's different now. I'm beginning to understand them better and how they live their life. I feel for them. Till something really serious happens to me currently. I don't know why that 'thing' develop within me for them...I'm beginning to be more interested in them rather than the real ones.

Some are for, whereas some are against it. There are also some who says 'Up to you, It's your life'. There have been more than 5 people lecturing me about it, asking me to think twice about the consequences and stuffs if I were to be with them. Yes, I did thought about what they've said. But I just can't seem to get it into my head. Or rather buried in my mind. It's like half of me wanting to listen to what they say and another half is me wanting to do the things I want. And that is to be with them.

How can I ever run away from these when I face them in school and at work?? I know that the one in school is 'grabbed' but I still can't get 'it' out of my head. As for the one at work, I'm not too sure abt that..But the way I see it is as though 'it's' better than the real ones. Oh my....What is happening...The things that I hated most last time is what I adore most now. What has brought the change in me?? Dammit..!!! I know I'm going towards the wrong way..Sometimes, I feel like I have no choice but to be in this situation. I don't know whether it's true or not..But one thing for sure is I know that my 'thing' for them are growing each day...

Haiss...I think I'm getting mixed up and confused over the fake and real ones...What the ....??


'I'm still searching for my trust which I've lost last time'


*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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2:22 PM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

It's August and it's a National Day today!! So, Happy Birthday Singapore!! 40 years of living nation. I'm sure each and everyone of you will have an enjoyable time with all the programmes lined up for the citizens, be it in the form of carnivals, tv shows etc..How I wish I could join in the fun too..

No holiday for me even though it's a public holiday. Work has to be done somehow. I'm sure there will be lotsa customers and we are gonna have a hard time attending to them. Like the past weekends, I almost fought with a customer. Well, not really lah..But it's like a case of miscommunication. However, they were being unreasonable too at times. No matter what, that rule still applies. 'Customer's always RIGHT'. So I can do nothing but to give way to their needs. This kinda work is really testing my patience on people. Some customers can be very understanding and reasonable whereas some are really atrocious. Some of them really get on my nerves..So demanding and irritating. Nevertheless, had to control the anger within me somehow, right. I don't want to lose my job over something stupid..

Even though it's freaking irritating attending to the customers, the working environment there is very fun. After a long and hard day working, all of us will get together and crap. Jokes here and there. All of them are an interesting bunch of people, like I've said before.

Enough abt work, now it's school time. My exams will be coming soon. And there's just so many topics to revise. I really mean loads. Have to remember the facts and statistics, which I hate most. That is for BZF. As for ACF, it's not much of a big problem. I've learned accounting before so I can fairly cope. As for OA, have to know which function is for what, how to insert this and that. If you forget a certain function, you can jolly well get ready to score lesser. Just when I thought ITE life is much more easier, I thought wrong. Well, at least it's not as hectic as secondary life cos for this term I'm only studying 3 modules which also mean 3 subjects. Yes, it's that little. But, like they say, never judge a book by it's cover. In this 3 modules, there's lotsa things to be covered for our examinations.

As it is, I'm already losing track of certain things. Sometimes, I don't even have the time to have a chat with dad. Once I'm back home from work, he's already asleep. Same goes for my siblings. Not to mention, I don't even have time for myself. Nevertheless, I'm happy living the life as it is now. I thank HIM for granting me a new beginning after having sucha hard period back then. Gotta get ready for work now. Take care always people!! =)


'Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans'

*OvEr aNd oUtz*


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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