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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Big Sis has been admitted to hospital in the morning..Suspected of appendicitis. Was shocked upon hearing that from my 1/4...Haiyoo..Just went to meet her the other day and all was well. Who could have thought that things could happened so drastically? So, after work which ended at 5, met up with 1/4 and off to hospital. She looked pale...Cannot eat nor drink..Pity her lah..She's the kind which is very bubbly and lively...Who would have thought?? Hopefully, she's gonna be perfectly ok..Just gotta wait for the results to be out..

So broke fast late...Went out of the hosp 10 mins before the time...Went to Sakura and we managed to break our fast at 710pm. After dinner, walked ard TM a while, wanted to look for shoes but there's none which I 'admired'. Hmms...Haven't been hunting for my own stuffs for a while so it's kinda hard..

Reached home at 8 plus, went online and saw Nana..As usual, we would crap abt our stuffs..Lols..And Nana, make sure you lend me the constantine cd...haha...Well, what happened was the day before we went to ITE Macpherson for some briefing on Mr and Ms ITE thingy...So while waiting for the I/c to come, we were entertained with that movie..I didn't watch it before so I know nothing abt the storyline..I thought it was nothing lah..But 'skali' the part came lah...The one where it makes you jerk off your seat and kinda shrieking away..Yeah...Haha...So I did exactly that...And there they are[the rest of those who went for the briefing which is from my sch, that is] laughing their heads off at me...'Mangkok' seh...And at one point of time, I actually hid behind Nana with a pillow covering my face..Lols..Thinking back abt it, my actions was indeed....haha..funny?? Lols...Then when the interesting part was about to be shown, the I/c had arrived and the meeting was to be started...So, I merely watched abt 20 mins of the movie..And I'm dying for more..Lol..

Oh yeah...My dear Lil Bro N has found out abt my current life..And he's unhappy abt that..He read through my bulletins on friendster and hence he knew abt it..Well, yeah..I told him the truth upon him asking me abt it..Sad he was..For not informing him about it sooner..Well, didn't mean to keep it from him either but I just don't wanna add to his misery and stress..I just can't bring myself to tell him that his sister is actually having this kinda life..It's not that I'm ashamed of it or what...But I'm afraid he can't take it..I'm afraid he can't accept the fact that I've turned this way. And hell yeah...That's what he is now. He kept emphasizing on why should this happened and stuffs...Well, not everyone can understand this kinda life, ain't it...Not everyone can accept the fact that I've turned this way..Sometimes, when you least expect something to be happening, it has actually happened. Yeah, yeah...I know I'm wrong by having this feeling within me...The feeling that develop is actually wrong..But what can I do? I've been living with this feeling for 2 months already, and everyday it's growing stronger...I don't wanna go to the wrong path either but.....Haisss....Like I said, not all understand the phase I'm in...But heys, I'm still unattached lah ok...So nothing to worry about it too much...Now, my bro ain't replying to my msgs...Haiss...=s


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1:29 AM

[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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