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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Hmms.....4 more days to Raya. Am done with the curtain hanging and baking of cookies. Baking cookies was fun as usual. However, the curtain hanging was disastrous. Had a hard time looking for the correct ones for the correct places. Then, the hanging part. I don't really adore hanging curtains..But I did it eventually. Can't possibly wait for my dad cos he always come back home late after his 'terawih'. So, I'm left with spring-cleaning my room which is in total mess. And I have 3 days to do so but I'll be working on those 3 days too..Hmms...Have to do some management here.


Yesterday, when I was online, finally, had something worthwhile to talk about with my friends. Well, at first it was only a casual talk between me and 2/4 but she asked something so came a friend of hers who joined our convo. But as time passes by, things get a lil 'heated up'. The topic we talked about was, somehow rather interesting. The convo goes on for about 2 hours, if i'm not wrong. Each of us which consists of 4 ppl altogether gave different point of views. Well, except for one guy among us. He only kept quiet. The reason was he's still new to the topic and don't really understand what's happening? Haha..Very funny lah he..All he did was laugh. So yeah, it's not easy for people to understand the whole situation and accept whatever is happening. Different people have different opinions and we have to respect them for that. It's already good enough that at least some people TRULY understands the whole scenario and feelings. In life, there are bound to be changes developing in us, humans. Not all can adapt to the changes and we can't force them to accept it either. It's up to them afterall. And it's up to us too, whether we want to change or not. It's our life. No one wants to destroy their own life. All they seek is just something which could not be found easily however, when they've found it, they would want to keep it forever and never let go. In this case, some people have found it but by the wrong way. It's been instilled in them for a long time hence, to get rid of it is hard for them. It's like you're ripping the heart out of the body. Confusion is what they always feel. Sometimes, they know what they're doing is totally wrong but in that mistake is where they find peacefulness, happiness and joy. Due to that, they don't feel like being in the right situation as they won't be able to find that in the right zone.

It's simply complicated lahs. Only those facing it, like me know how it feels like to be in the scene. No matter how hard you want to get out of that phase, it ain't easy. Yes, some people might say, it's all up to you. If you want to change, strive hard to do so. Unless, your mindset has insisted on doing otherwise. Oh wells...I'm just taking things slow right now. I'm on the bench. Flexible with both zones. Waiting for time again? I guess, time's my very best friend. I always rely on it. Just something which I want to remind,
Never go around discriminating others if you don't know the real thing. Get your facts right before 'shooting' them with your own facts. For all you know, they might be better than you. No one ain't perfect. Everybody make mistakes'.



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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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