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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Super Duper interesting and exciting day it was for me earlier on....I don't know whether to frown or to smile...Went to work as usual..Took 2 orders and that's that. I mean, that's the end of my service. I had to go to the kitchen and do the stuffs there..Meaning I became a kitchen staff. Not a service staff for today. Damnation!!! Mr Manager lah...Haiyooo...

Oh yeah, before that, was kinda surprised to see someone there..With her partner. Her partner very sweet and friendly seh...Took her orders and served her...Well, Nana should know who I'm talking about cos it's her 'idol'...Lols...

So back to where I was just now, got the dine-in and delivery stuffs ready..Man, it was kinda challenging. Have to remember the ingredients and stuffs and have to get the orders ready on time. It sure was tough..I kept looking on the chart cos I can't really remember what is what. A service staff remembers different thing mah...Well, besides that, 'kena tengking' with some people due to certain things...Hah...A norm for ppl to do that to me..So don't really bother about that. The situation just now was pretty busy. Weekends mah..Haiss...Got myself scalded, again. What's a scald when working in this kinda line, right? Learnt new things, like cook up some stuffs etc...Thinking back, it was kinda fun too. Even though it's like 'kelam kabut' kinda thingy, doing kitchen is quite ok. Unlike servicing, you have to remember the orders of the customers correctly. The worst part is when they come in big groups. That'll be a prob. A pen and a paper will be needed for that. Sending orders is another thing for service. Have to send the correct stuff to the correct table. After one day doing my part as a kitchen staff, I think, doing kitchen is a lil bit better then doing service.

After all that's been done, closing time. Clean this and that, stack this and that..Just when I thought I could go home already, Mr Manager said, 'Your job is still not done'. And I was like, 'Wtf??' What more did I not do?? Was kinda sad lah..Tired liao but this had to happen. All my service staff friends had gone home and I was the only one left with the riders. Then, the thing I dread most was what Bro asked me to do...'Count the stocks'. Another damnation..!! I hate doing it lah ok..But since I was the only one left, what can I do but to proceed with it. Can't possibly asked the riders to do it, right...And so, I spent 15 mins counting them, despite my letarghic-ness..Finally, my job's done for the day. Hurried to catch the last bus and upon reaching home, had my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner cum supper...Yes, I haven't been eating the whole day. Well, except for some biscuits when I woke up at noon. Pathetic, ain't it..

Oh yeah, I dreamt about the EX the other day...Don't know what makes me dream of him..But when I woke up, I realised I actually dreamt of him. Hoho...Scary huh..Lols..Well, I don't know when will he be talking to me again..Maybe soon, maybe later..Or even not at all. Maybe the friendship bond is no longer there. What more can I do...Gotta accept the fact that I lost yet another good friend of 5 years. Memories will remain as memories huh...

I don't like it when she kept talking about her ex...I don't know why but I just feel...Hmms...I don't know lah...I know she's your darling ex but ex will remain as ex..She come back to you cos she's having some crisis with her guy hence she need a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. But remember, she's your ex. There's no way you guys could be together back..Cos she's leading a different life now. I know you still love her and stuffs, but just make it a point that you could only be friends with her. That's it. I don't know..Maybe I'm feeling jealous..Haiss....It's just un-explainable lahs...


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
101087
Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
Gastrics=BEST FRIEND

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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