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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Thursday, November 03, 2005

And finally...Everything's done..Well, almost..Apart from filling the empty bottles with 'kuih2s', the rest is ok. Got back from work at ard 5 plus then cooked for the family for the last day of break fast and get on with baking of cookies again..Yeah, last min work..haha..

Shifted the chairs, lay the carpet, change the 'alas meja' and stuffs..Man, tiring it was..But glad everything's ok..It's 3 am now and no one at home is sleeping..Dad's still busy doing some cleaning of fans etc..The sibz are helping him..The mood for 'raya' is just isn't here. Well, like the past 2 years..It's been meaningless. So yeah..Don't feel the excitement or enjoyment of it..Just like any other day..

Oh yeah..Someone called me out of the blue..This 'Mr' here called me thrice but I didn't answer..Well, was busy doing something else mah..So when he called for the 4th time, I got to answer it eventually. A lil hello and stuffs, and called him back using house phone cos he asked to. Outgoing calls are expensive mah..Then, talked abt preparation of hari raya, work, family and the past...He mentioned abt the 'Ex'..Just kept quiet lah..Lazy to talk about it anymore. However, in the midst of our convo, the line was cut off. I guess, he accidentally put down his phone. He was accompanying his friends who were looking for some last min stuffs. And just a lil while ago, 'Mr' msged me..Then again, he asked something weird. Well, as he wanted it that way, I answered it truthfully. It's surprising that we're in the same boat too...Hmms..So we share the same sadness...I wonder what is he up to...Hmms...He's like being...Odd..I don't know lah..Shall see in days to come..

Won't be visiting many houses tomorrow...The usual 3 places only. Grandma[mum's side], Great-granny and 2nd eldest Uncle [from dad's side]...Am just gonna spend time with my dear cuz and get crazy...Haha..That's us..The crazy and mischevious duo..So gotta get some sleep now..Damn tired liao...To all my muslim friends out there, 'SALAM AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR BATIN'!!!!!!! Take care always...*hugs* =)


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Hopeless
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Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
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Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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