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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Monday, November 07, 2005

Ok, Raya was urms...Cool?? It was all right, I guess..Apart from being forced to eat and stuffs, everything else was fine. Went to aunt's place where granny was and stayed there for quite a while. My dear cuzzies was there..The young ones were busy playing their own games, the middle ones were playing soccer at the lift area whereas the elder ones was in the house, chilling. Haha..Then we started to get crazy by taking all sorts of photos and poses..It so happened when my cuz, Fir, has finished 'layaning' his sch mates. Lols..He was the one who started all those pics taking thingy. It was fun lah..Then exchanging of stories and stuffs. About each other's life. That was the first day. For 2nd day, dad had to work so we didn't go out. Saturday, it was my turn working, actually, both dad and me working lah. Then dad came home ard 9pm. Siblings were already unhappy cos they are bored at home and with this kinda festive season happening, who wants to stay at home, ain't it??? So, ard 10 pm, brother called me up at work, saying that they will be going to aunt's place which is near to ours. So yeah, after work, rushed there. And stayed till about 2am. Haha..

Sunday, went cemetry visiting and to the west side. My dad's side that is. So tired and sleepy. The last place yesterday was at punggol. Uncle's place. Was already half-asleep by then. Gotten a flu, slight fever and a sore throat. The flu is kinda bad..Sucks lah..Can't work properly this way. Working at 4 till night as usual later..This weekend, will be going out 'jalan raya-ing' with mates. But damn, there seems to be some problem. Not all of them are confirmed going. I've already tried hard enough to get a leave for this sunday's occassion and this had to happen. Like Fcuk right..When I'm unable to go, they won't be too happy. Now, when I'm free, they are the ones who are not sure. Why must it be like this?? Feel like cancelling the whole thing and just go to work man...Kinda pissed already...Haisss...Then now, I'm like half-hearted. I've already invited one of my friend for this outing which he has yet to confirmed, but one of the mates suggested not bringing people whom they don't know. So as to avoid uncomfortability and communication barrier. So now, what am I supposed to do? Tell the guy that reason? Or tell him that the whole thing is cancelled so that he won't be following? Just at my wit's end lah..Then best friend said she won't be joining us if her ex is following just because my friend and her ex are gd friends, so they will surely be together. Damn!!!!! This super sucks lah ok!!!! I already have a feeling to cancel it..Just forget about the whole thing..But some said, it's once a year thingy and all those stuffs...But hey, look at the response I get??!!! I've sacrificed my work just for this thing..Not only me, some others also sacrificed for the sake of the outing, yet this happened. Some people asked me to spare a thought for others, but is there anyone who's gonna do the same thing to me??!!!! Hey, come on lah..Do unto others what you want others to do unto you.

Dammit lah...I can't think of anything anymore..Just so sick and tired...So, it's either the outing will go on but without the usual mates, or it will be cancelled. I guess, it's simple that way?? It's always me who have to do the thinking...Wth...Shall be gone for now. Gotta take a short nap before going to work.


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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