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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

School's started 2 days ago..First day was well, nothing fun. Except for the fact that I came for only 2 hrs, only to listen to the I/C of my course lecture about our modules and results..So basically, yeah..Damn slack..Went home and sleep and get off to work. 2nd day of school, absent..Haha..Chest pains came back and hurts real much. 3rd day which was today, it was ok. Again, kinda slack also. Then had combined lectures with darl's class for PR. That's the best lah aytes..Can see her always..And it will carry on till about next april..Long term we're gonna have this time.

The timetable's this term is kinda ok lah..Get to start late and not do duties but also go home late lah..Long hours of lessons. And I can't believe that I will be having 2 hours of PR lectures!!!! It's 2 hours, mind you. Even just now, when it was only about 20 mins, I was already feeling sleepy. What more 2 hours??!!! Gosh...Then got keyboarding skills, like hah? Funny seh...Maybe I'm just looking forward to the events which I'm gonna help out soon enough this wed and christmas time. It's part of the event's management course. So yeah..Organising and stuffs...Loads of work to be done..

Weather's making me sleep in and not wanting to get up for school. But I've already told myself to buck up and attend school. So yeah, am trying to change for the better? Hmms..Hopefully. Off day today so went to watch Harry Potter..It was fabulous, I tell you. The sound effects was indeed powerful. The whole thing itself was fantastic. Well, being kinda emo during one part where someone died. Cedric Diggory that is. Murdered by that freakin Voldemort. Wasn't the only one who cried though..A few others around me did, too!! Haha..It's been ages since I last watched a movie and hell yeah it makes me feel great after doing so. Walked passed E-zone and guess who I saw?? Haha..It was the female version of someone. Lols...Looking at that particular someone reminds me of a friend who is said to be her 'uncle'. But I guess, like what my friend who I went to watch the movie with, said, "it's better to be with the original"..Haha..She kept on pinching me when I looked at the female version..Lols..How I wish the male version was there instead..Lols...

Argh!! I'm confused with myself. It's not that I can't differentiate stuffs but things are just too complicated? When the only hope was there, I'm afraid that history would repeat itself hence I let it all go. Then came that particular phase which no one could ever imagine me being in it. I just don't know what the hack am I feeling all these while. I never feel a thing for 'them' anymore but it's kinda hard to extract the real truth. It's like lifeless. Oh gosh...I don't know what else I can do..


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11:45 PM

[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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