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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Thursday, December 08, 2005

I think I'm beginning to hate someone...But I don't really have the heart to...I seriously don't understand why must people lie...What do they gain from it? Success? Pleasure?? What the fcuk?!! Delighted I was to meet that particular someone again. But that feelings changes when my friend mentioned something..Disheartened. Yet again. Oh well..That's a norm for me. Heartbreaks are seriously taking a place in myself. I'm getting SO USED to it already.

I felt like crying but I couldn't possibly do so in public ain't it...So now I know the reasons as to why the contacting has suddenly stopped!!! You could jolly well tell me the damn truth instead of hiding it right? What's so shameful of being committed?? Woah...This incident is really making the hate thingy rise to the top level!!! So now, tell me...How do I trust people?? Those people that I trust and have hopes upon kept destroying and betraying those trust and hopes over and over again..Please note: THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME. I couldn't figure out as to why you gotta hide about it. I looked forward to seeing you on this coming week, but after this incident which happened just now, I'm at lost. You're don't seem to be the same person I knew back then. Yeah right, people change..I forgot. Hah!

Frankly speaking, I just felt like boxing something or someone..I was so freaking pissed?? I guess that particular friend of mine noticed the change in my face hence he asked my another friend to clarify the whole thing. Haiss...Wanted to cry but those tears just couldn't come out. I guess it had enough of crying for these kinda people?? Thank you Darling and Syueks for the hug which I desperately need at that point of time. I love you guys..=)

Oh btw, another darling of mine smacked me with her towel or something?? Hrrmmphhh....It's kinda painful yet shocking..Cos I didn't notice her presence beside me..Was about to utter unkind words to that person, only to find out that it was my another darling who did that...I hate you lah Yat...You don't love me is it?? Haiyoo..Anyhow smack me...!!! Lols..

Ok ok, I shall try to RECOVER yet AGAIN asap... Life...What can I say? I gotta accept the fact that it has already happend and they are happy? together...So yeah..Gotta live with it.

Au revoir~


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
Gastrics=BEST FRIEND

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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