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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Sunday, January 08, 2006

School's started and it kinda pretty sucks. Ain't enough sleep and end up sleeping in class. That's a norm already lah. I've yet to start on my powerpoint presentation which is due in mid-feb. Few more weeks to go yet nothing has been done. Nowadays, I'm just not looking forward to almost everything. Just the other day, I talked to Syueks abt it. Wake up, proceed to sch, lessons, work, home. I don't know why but I just feel bored? Not really lah...But I just don't seem to look forward to anything at all. Pretty boring life? Hmmms...

Those who really perks up the mood and atmosphere are just a few. And now, one of those few will be leaving me behind. Boy, I'm sad to hear that. She's going away to Australia and maybe settle down there with her brother. Worse thing, her whole family will also go there. She's my sister at work and we usually go back together, share about lotsa stuffs and now, she's going away. Next week will be her last in SG. I can't imagine being at work without her presence. She's sucha lovable, naive kid. I'm so afraid that she'll change once she's over there. All I can say is I'm gonna miss her real much.

Other than that, everything's fine, I guess. Well, hopefully lah..Am waiting for Hari Raya Haji. Can meet all my cousins again. Miss them badly. Granny's not doing too well either. Am freakin worried about her condition. As much as I don't want her to leave, I know that she will go some day. And that's freaking hard to fully accept it. I've lost my mother, then my uncle, then granduncle...All that happened in the past 3 years. I am just so afraid of losing my precious ones. But nothing can be done to avoid it. I know. Be it family or friends.

For YOU, don't know lah you'll be reading it or not, but anyway...I just find it hard to believe. It's just not you. Well, maybe you are really together back, but I have to say I'm sorry for not believing that. I trusted you once but it was betrayed. Hence, it's tough for me to trust you again. Hope you can understand that. Whether or not it's true, it's your problem. You don't have to tell me. I don't need nor do I have the right to know. Just knowing that you're fine and safe is good enough for me. With who you're going out or dating or having relationships with, do me a favour. Keep it to yourself ayte. Thank you for acceeding to my request.


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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