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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Boy, am I glad to hear the news. My net friend is finally hitched with the one he love most. I'm happy for him. After all those, they are together. And now that they are together, they want to help me with my problem. Hah..Sorry, but me and that person ain't no longer contacting. No reason why. It suddenly stopped. Thanks for the thought, though..This net friend of mine used to have the same problems as me hence we kinda like understand and confided in each other. Kept giving him advices and stuffs. I still remembered how sad he was during that time. Now, he's back to his normal, jovial self. May you and your girl be blessed always.

Well, irony it may seem that I kept advising and encouraging people but when it comes to myself, nothing can be done. Like what I told that friend of mine, I've quit hoping. Especially on these kinda thing. I find it useless, hoping for things which will never happen. It's just a waste of time. My work mate once asked when I'm gonna get attached. I simply told her, I'm not for it this instance and I immediately went on to other topic. It may seem that I'm running away. But no. I just don't want to think about it. If it meant to happen, then I accept. If not, there's no point in talking or dreaming about things like this. I may sound like I'm giving up totally on the big word. RELATIONSHIP. However, I'm not. Well, maybe partially. Hah...What's the difference anyway. I'm still young and why do I have to strain myself with these kinda matter? It's still too early to talk about serious committments, ain't it. Besides, I'm only turning 19 this year. So yeah...Pointless thinking abt it.

Oh, I eventually became a victim of someone's mood swing at work just now. Like what the fish..If you're not happy with me, we can just talk it out. However, if it's someone else who makes you rage with mad, why the hack must you let it out on me? What do you think am I? Yeah, it seems that you've been doing it all along and I just kept mum about it. There's a limit to everything, don't you think so? I don't know why you've been acting like this since that complication matter. Just get over it and start anew lah..Why must I be the victim over and over again..Maybe it's just me. I don't understand and I doubt I ever will.


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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