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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Friday, May 05, 2006

Ok, so school's started...It marks the 2nd year of my education in Bishan. Just one more year to go and that's it. Aanyways, this term's timetable is kinda great. No more ending lesson so late. I've got days where I end at 10 and starts at 1. This is what I want..Haha..Lols..Oh yeah, the CA's changed. No longer Mr Liau..This time it's a lady. And I forgot her name. However, Mr Liau will still be teaching my class for Tourism. Then there's PIE, ADM, ENT etc. Will start learning only next week I guess.

So for the first two days of school, I wasn't in class. Was busy helping out with the may intake orientation programme. SCs collaborating with the BLs that is. There were so many classes this time. Saw a few faces I know. Well, anyway, I was in charge of ISP. Higher Nitec in Biz Admin. Together with 2 of the BLs. Firstly, was the tour around the school. Then the ice breaking and stuffs like that..Well, orientation..What else do you expect right..Same old every year..Initially, the class was like dead lah..Yeah, it's like you don't know anyone in that class and prefer to be alone kinda thingy..However, after a lil while, sparks began to occur. After the introduction of the names, they were kinda more ok with each other. Asked Nana to help out in my class and yeah..We were enjoying it most of the time. Got myself familiarised with the students of the class and they are a great bunch of people.

2nd day was the telematch thingy. My class didn't win anything but nevertheless, we had fun. Exteremely good fun. Sabo-ing people was the main purpose in that. Well, I only sabo-ed my class with water lah not flour unlike some others. I don't want them to get dirty. Pity them..Haha...Well, I attacked my fave guy in that class which was so clever to run away and stay in a spot which is muddy. So that I won't attacked him lah..All these remind me of my orientation programme last year. Overall, the bond I had with ISP was good.

Due to this orientation thingy, I suffered. Lethargic-ness, muscle cramps and migraines. There was one day, on Wednesday, I skipped work cos I really had no strength left to work. Upon reaching home at 630pm, I fainted to bed. Only woke up when the alarm sounded, the next morning that is. I was totally drained out the night before that I didn't even have my dinner or shower. Was still in the zombie mode when I wanted to go to school.

Today, again, I skipped school. Was having a heavy migraine in the morning. Couldn't even get myself up. Lack of sleep I guess. This is only the starting point. More will come in time. No work today..Off day...Took off so that I could celebrate my sister's bdae together with my dad and brother. Haven't been really spending time with them for the past few days.

For personal life, I think we're drifting. I don't know..Maybe it's just on my part. But again, maybe it's not..The communication we used to have last time no longer exists. It's like, we saw each other most of the time, yet we rarely talk. Bumped into each other most of the time, yet both gave no signal. Only sometimes were there times where we kinda like acknowledged each other. Can see that he communicate more with one of my friend rather than me..Well, more like arguing/disturbing kinda thingy..Well, the smses do go on sometimes..Oh well...Guess it's just another failure yet again...

Till then people, au revoir..


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2:22 PM

[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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