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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Monday, May 22, 2006

A week has passed but I'm still not well..Was absent again from school today and went to the doctor, again. This time around a different doctor. After having fever, came the flu and lotsa phelgms and coughs..So irritating..Waited for like half an hour for the doctor and yeah same old thing..

Aanyways, gonna be real busy this week and more to come. Especially with the upcoming camp in June which I'm gonna work on. Am in charge of the games section. Gosh...I have totally no idea what to plan!! Am seeking help from all sorta friends about this. Pls dear friends, if you got any games in mind, tell me about it...I need some suggestions badly!!! Lols..Am kinda looking forward to the May intake new councillors which might be in the SC's grasp, hopefully, by the end of the month. That'll mean more members and more chaotic session with them. Haha..

Oh yeah..I got to know that my 'once upon a time' good friend, is already engaged. But the news didn't came from the owner herself, instead, someone else. Frankly speaking, was kinda disappointed as to why she didn't inform me and stuffs..Well, yeah, like what malays said, 'buat secara kecil-kecilan'. Nevertheless, she could tell me beforehand so that well, I'm able to join in her moment of happiness ain't it..I thought of congratulating her over the phone, but thinking back, nahs...We haven't been contacting for ages..Let's just pray for her happiness and may you be all well with your fiance. Hoping to see you on your wedding day though..On the other hand, I'm happy for her. Didn't expect one of my good friend to get hitched so fast.. Haha...

Thinking back, it's already been 19 years of my life. Ain't getting any younger..As time passes us by, we realize things which we don't find it important back then. It's like the more older you get, the more trivial matters you have to take care of. Adulthood is sure something which you can't really handle yourself, sometimes. Take my cousin for instance, I think he's facing too much pressure till he thinks of nonsensical stuffs..That scares me a lot you know...When someone close to you talking about things which they are not supposed to, or rather, not the time yet..Nothing is ever easy in our life ain't it...

As of now, I don't know what to think of..My mind is just too preoccupied with school and work. Other than that, there's nothing else. Kinda boring life I lead, some of you may find. Yeah, I agree..Sometimes it is..However, with such wonderful friends surrounding you, you won't feel the boredom at all. It's like they are the sunshine and rain over you..No matter what kinda misunderstandings we may have, at the end of the day, we are still friends..I'm glad to have made many new friends..Friends who understand me better, friends who teach me right from wrong, friends who listens to my inner part, friends who don't mind going through my rough patches..I seriously Thank GOD for bringing me to this path of life..Where I got to learn all sorts of things..It's really amazing..Syukur Alhamdulilah..

I may not have mentioned this to all of my friends, but..I'm taking this opportunity to do so..

THANK YOU FOR BEING IN MY LIFE, FOR GUIDING ME THROUGH ALL THESE WHILE. I APPRECIATE IT GREATLY. NOTHING CAN EVER REPAY WHAT YOU PEOPLE HAVE DONE TO ME IN MY 19 YEARS OF LIFE. I ENJOY BEING WITH YOU PEOPLE HENCE I HOPE YOU GUYS WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME, BE IT FAR OR NEAR..IN MY HEART YOU'LL ALWAYS BE. =))


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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[E]xits
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[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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