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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Friday, June 16, 2006

The week's been pretty hectic for me..Loads of plans after school. The moment I step at home, I changed and immediately sleep till the next morning. Even after sleeping for abt 10 hours, I'm still sleepy. That's how lethargic I am these few days..

Just so many things to do..Camp meetings, Briefings..Etc..Haven't been working for the past few days too...Hopefully, gonna be back to work and training soon. Been missing in action for quite some time..Oh yeah, am in the Dance Committee for this season. Gdness, can't believe it that I'm in it. Was about to tell the in charge that I wanted to back out when she came to me telling me abt the dance practise and stuffs. It's gonna start on this coming Tuesday. Can't imagine myself DANCING in FRONT OF THE WHOLE SCHOOL. The last time I danced in front of many people was in Secondary Three. So long ago seh...That's when all the wobbly-ness and butterflies takes their place.

Aanyways, Bishan Netball Team got first in the Netball Carnival last Wed. Wasn't the top 12 who played though..It didn't matter anyway. I missed the selection session and yeah seeing other people who's way much better than me, I think it's only right that I wasn't in. However, some peeps weren't too happy about it either..Haha.."Join the team" someone said to me...Lols..

Office Administration Module CA will be on next Tuesday. Haven't even study a damn thing. Don't really understand whatever thing is there..Form filling whatever lah..My teacher teach also like bullet train. Kan chiong spider..TPS CA will be in August, after our hols in July that is.

Am missing the attachement guys badly esp my dearest Kor and Fai..Hope to see them tomorrow during the SC bbq thingy...Am praying hard that Mr Sun will be there always..Alvina and gang has planned some activities for us and we gotta come with something RETRO. I seriously have nothing retro-ish on my mind, in my wardrobe or wherever...Those who couldn't accede to their request will have to do forfeits. My oh my...Gotta bring extra clothings just in case..Hmms...May it be a fun one though..

Wedding Bells gonna be ringing this weekend. Not too sure whether I'm looking forward to it or not..It's from dad's side anyway. Maybe am just gonna present myself for a lil while..Depends on my dad though..He's gonna stay long for sure..Talking abt dad, it seems that we are currently facing a communication breakout. It's been going on for some time though..I don't know why...I can count how many times I really talk to him in a week. It can be as bad as only once. I ain't kidding..Things are getting worse I can say. I simply have no idea how to rectify the whole situation. It's like sometimes when I took the initiative to strike a conversation with him, he will give me simple answers. Yeah, some of you may say I gotta understand him cos he's tired working the whole day and stuffs...But well..The response is seriously demoralising...I'm so affected by the whole thing..I don't know..Maybe it's just me who don't know how to take care of her dad well..Things have seriously been very different lately..Like there's no more life and joy in the house/family. Even if there is, it's only for a short period of time. It won't last long...


Nothing in the world ever lasts, ain't it...


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8:08 PM

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I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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[Aini]
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Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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