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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Monday, July 31, 2006

Yesterday was the good friend's last day at work. He's gonna transfer to TNT, following
'The Dad'...I already made a pact to him that I won't cry at his departure but I guess I failed. Was busy keying in my order when he came to me from the front door and shook my hand and said those farewell words. Then he went off. Gosh, my heart seriously crushed. Immediately, crystals formed in my eyes. I could not resist those tears. I saw him went away, looking back at the store which he has served for 2 years.

Could not really carry on with work for a while. Customers look at me in a weird way, thinking of why suddenly my eyes were red and watery. Yeah, people may think that he's only transferring what..It may not seem a big deal, but to me it is. He stays in the west while I'm at the east. It's difficult to meet up cos of both's busy schedule. Plus, his internet connection is gonna be cut as his house gotta do some re-wiring thing so can't chat on msn. His phone is the same thing. If he never pay his bill, that's it. No other modes of communication. Furthermore, it's not the same. For the past one year, he has been my laughing starter.

He's the only good friend I have at work, not until yesterday that is. I can't even remember how I started talking to him. All I know is we became great friends. He understands so much abt my predicaments, he laughs at my lame, stupid jokes, he teached me right from wrong, he will always try his very best to make me laugh or smile whenever I'm sad or even when I'm mad. He is also the one who makes me cry. We shared so many problems together and will find means and ways to solve it. Basically, it's like we have been friends since childhood. However, I only gotta know him last year, July to be exact, when I joined the workforce that is. It's only been a year of our friendship yet so many things happened btwn us. It's so irony that you understand and bond with someone so much within one year.


Due to this closeness, people thought that we were together as a couple. How ridiculous can that be. But I don't blame them either. It's a natural thinking of humans. I even made a pact with him, not talking to each other at all at work and it seriously happened for like 2 weekends. However, you broke the pact on your last day of work. I don't blame you friend..Now that you're no longer there, things are surely gonna be different. There's no one for me to vent my anger or sadness, no one for me to punch or push, no one for me to laugh wholeheartedly with...Everything during that one year has become a memory. A wonderful one.

I guess it's just me now with the memories. First, it was the brother, then now it's you. No matter how hard for me to swallow, I still have to force myself to do so. Facing the weekends without you..Without the Bulldog Auntie..Farewell my friend..May you lead a happy working life down there at TNT. I am gonna miss you terribly. Take care always. Cherios!


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3:31 PM

[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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