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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Work was pretty hectic just now with only me and Jeff doing the orders. No doubt received some help from a few of them, but it was only for a while lah..They also got other things to do. Lotsa orders today, practically lotsa large ones. Kept stringing and stringing for like abt 2 hrs. Was on my two feet the whole day and only sat when there's no orders. Supposed to finish at 9, but I can't bare to see Jeff do closing alone. So stayed on and helped him in whichever area. Got myself a few cuts and burns, which is already a norm. Now, my right hand is kinda cramped. Tmrw working opening. 8 in the morning. Gosh, I gotta force myself to wake up that early. Plus, it's the fasting month already. In abt 3 hours time, will be having the pre dawn meal, but I doubt I'll be eating. I don't usually even wake up for the pre dawn meal. I will only take a sip of water, say some prayers and back to sleep. And that will go on for the whole of fasting month. Heh..News is that I gotta break fast at the Aunt's place and I'm EXPECTED to be there. Will try to get away from work ard 6 if possible. Hopefully.


When at work, talked to Idris. Abt lotsa stuffs. Basically abt life. Know him a lil bit better now. Was talking to him abt the situation I'm currently in. Am just damn confused. I don't know whether to accept it openly(like he asked to) or in another manner. Of course I was delighted to know the news at first. Cos it's been also quite some time. On the other hand, I'm kinda scared. Scared to be in a new environment, new condition and stuffs. I'm sure there's bound to be complications sooner or later. Asked him whether I'll be in the wrong if I were not to accept it wholly and he said I'm to give blessings instead. He said things might go a better way. Which I certainly hope so. Insyallah. Talk abt some other crappy stuffs also, which well, kinda made me feel at ease even during this point of time, whereby I'm very stressed out. Around 10, he made a move, wished him a safe ride home and I continued with the closing.


Totally shagged by then. Just did whatever I could and in the end, Jeff ended his closing earlier than mine cos it seems that I really did whatever I could, without waiting for other people. He waited for me and we walked home together. A 15 min walk alone and having company is indeed totally different. Was glad that he changed his mind abt taking a bus and went with me. Heh..Now, here I am, waiting for dad to come home from work. Guess will be taking a short nap before waking my brother up for the pre dawn meal.

Till then..

To all Muslims, SELAMAT BERPUASA.


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I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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[1/4]
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[Nana]
[Irza]
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[Nana]
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[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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