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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.

Kit McCallum

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

A birthday which wasn't like a birthday...Stayed home the whole day, sleeping in, watch tv, get online, did some reading. Just like any normal day. Nevertheless, spent time with family the day before. Got this cake which was made by a someone in the future. Was pretty nice though. Very creative he is. Appreciate it very much. Many many thanks to the future someone.

Well, on the strike of midnight, sms came in and there goes the usual wishes. Via msn too. Yat, the crappy partner also wasn't left out. She did something which made me start off with laughing but ended up crying. It was seriously very touching indeed. Very cute and very creative. Haha...THANK YOU SO MUCH MY DEAR FRIEND. I shall patiently wait for the wrapping paper ayte..Lols..

Work was superb just now. The good friend at work told the people there abt my big day yesterday. Hence, my dear dear manager of all, got some plan. Once it was 10pm, and while I was washing some stuffs, the good friend grabbed me by the arm and carried me to this spot. There, good friend, manager and another accomplice tied my hands and legs. Tried to break free but they were too strong for me. Just imagine lah..3 guys and I'm alone. They seriously have such enormous strength. Was practically cursing and swearing at them. My shoe on the other hand, kept coming off. Super irritating. Then they carried me outside, like I was some kind of prisoner and on the grass, laid me down. Was showered with buckets filled with eggs, flour and water. So fresh!! Even went to the extent of shouting, 'Rape!', when my manager puts his legs on my back which made me hard to breathe. Haha...Thinking back and watching the video, it was indeed hilarious. Tried getting back at them but gave up as I was tired with the struggling earlier on.

Now, both my arms are in pain. A small spot of blue black can be found too. Immediately cleanse myself upon reaching home. Can't stand the yuckiness. Heh..

A totally different story now.

School's starting next week. In fact in less than 4 days. 16th. I'm not ready for school. Never ever was anyway. Back to the duties, events, rules and regulations, lectures and classes. Gotta get another new mask. This time with more colourful designs. Oh boy!

Am currently hooked to this book which I bought 2 days ago. Cecelia Ahern-Where Rainbows End. It's simply fantastic!! The storyline is great. I could imagine it happening in my own life. Very life related. Like for once, I stopped buying those investigative Sandra Browns, but instead Love/Friendship/Life stories. How irony. Cos I used to find these kinda books a bit boring and no 'kick'. Now, now..My view has changed.

'Our life is made up of time. Our days are measured in hours. Our pay measured by those hours and our knowledge is measured by years.'

'Just when you get used to something, zap! It changes. Just when you begin to understand someone, zap! They grow up.'

Now what?? Life..Ain't easy after all..Well, who said it was anyway? Hack..

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