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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Friday, November 24, 2006

So it's done. Sister has got back her PSLE results, which I'm pretty proud of. Was utterly surprised when I saw my sister's name on the powerpoint slide which the principal was showing, in the hall. Well, she emerged as one of the Top Student for her Em3 cohort. Upon seeing that, I was exhilirated and sorta shouted for my dad cos at that point of time, me and dad were kinda separated due to the massive crowd. Without realising it, tears nearly fell down my cheeks. In fact, my aunt was already tearing when she saw my sister's name too. I then heaved a huge sigh of relief cos I know that my sister managed to clear the first step of the hurdle. I'm sure mum would have been very proud and happy for her, if she was still living. Nevertheless, I'm sure she's feeling that way up there too.

Mum, sister is now going on a different stage of life. Secondary School life that is. She's becoming a teenager. I'm sure you know how teenager lead their life right? Well, I was once there and I know you had a hard time nurturing me to become a good teen. Now that it's sister's turn, I'm feeling scared and nervous yet delighted for her. She's growing up. Dear Mum, please look after her and also after us. The whole family. We really miss you. Am now just waiting for the school results as to which school she'll be posted to. Hopefully, the ones which she wanted or those near our living area. Insyallah.

Anyway, the crappy partner has gone to HK for a few days. I seriously thought her flight is gonna be next week, when in fact it was actually at 11am just now!! How silly of me to forget that!! She gave me an email before leaving cos we could not get through each other on msn last night. I cried while reading that. Was in school having CDP lesson, mind you. Her content was simply touching hence the tears. Even though she did insert some humor, it did not help much. It's such irony on how we became really good friends when we rarely see or talk to each other in school. Well mate, that's how life is huh. Too many ironical matters. I'm glad to be your friend, even though you drive me nuts sometimes. Shall be waiting for you next week then. Have a safe journey through and fro ya. I miss you too!! =)


Am still worried for granny's condition. I know it's not gonna be for long but losing her will obviously change things. No matter what, I could just pray and hope that she'll hold on for as long as she can.


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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