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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Friday, November 10, 2006

Yesterday, had a talk abt LOVE, RELATIONSHIP and SEX after our lessons. Upon hearing this topic being brought up by the panel speaker, I was immediately turned off by it. I felt like just walking out of the auditorium and head home. Sadly, I can't. So yeah, was stucked abt an hour in there. There they were talking abt what does LOVE actually mean, what's the difference btwn LOVE, LUST and INFATUATION. How important communication and spending QUALITY TIME when being in a relationship. Lastly, how SEX is not the MAIN FACTOR in a relationship.

There were some truths in what they talked about according to their experiences. I don't deny that I have been in that situation before years back. Wasn't a nice thing, though. So wouldn't want to recall those horrid moments. Heh..What attracts me most was towards the ending whereby the woman speaker said something which goes, "Live a lie- take as though the relationship did not matter/happened at all". That struck my mind.

Why? Cos that was just what I did after that whole incident happened last time. I pretended that the relationship did not occur at all. And it was just a wishful thinking on my part. I lied my way through those past few months. Reality hurts, no doubt. Up till now, I have not gotten the exact answer as to why IT ended, SILENTLY that is. I used to urge the past to tell me the reason but days, months, years..Nothing came out. So I guess the past has his reasons not to tell me or maybe I just should not bother myself with it after all. Well, I did. People around me had a hard time telling me off, advising, brainwashing my mind and stuffs.

I guess I was too naive back then to know what's the real meaning of LOVE. Maybe it was just LIKE. A crush thingy. Or maybe it's an INFATUATION. Now, being a year away from adulthood, I'm beginning to understand and see things in a different perspective. I'm beginning to accept things which I could not last time. But one thing for sure, which my very good friend has to keep reminding me, is that I should create opportunities, for others but most importantly, for myself.


Here's something which I took during the talk.

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And this is just when you're bored at home with no plans at all.

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Till then, I'm finally back to work later in the evening after 4 days of no work. =)


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
Gastrics=BEST FRIEND

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[Nana]
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[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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