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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Firstly, I would like to thank Aini and Hana, for being there when I was in Mrs Heng's office, the other day. Not only that, I really appreciate your concern about me and other stuffs. Yes, no doubt it's hard to handle but I guess at that moment of time, my mind was in a super mess hence THAT decision. After the talk with her, I guess I gotta change my thinking and yeah, what she said was indeed true. Be it or be it not I something-something, that particular thing will still happen and life still has to go on. Dearest Aini and Hana, thanks for bringing me back when I was already on the verge of 'surrendering'. I will try to stay strong for as long as I can cos after all I'm only a human with weak feelings.


It's already December. End of the year. 2 more weeks to holidays and abt 3 more months to graduation. That 3 more months can be a living hell for me, though. I am already struggling hard enough for the days passing by, what more 3 MORE months!! I have to keep telling myself to endure, endure and endure. Tough, it's gonna be. What shall I do after grad? Work, of course. As to whether I continue studying or not, will consider about it later. Like what and how it's always been, School's a drag. But without it, you can't live in here. Certificates are vital in Singapore, so it seems.



2nd December. HER birthday. She would have turned 48 this year.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM.


The change has already happened. Though it's not an official thing yet, it has still happened. And sadly, I'm not really satisfied with it but jealousy took over me instead.
I'm at my wits' end, STILL.


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
Gastrics=BEST FRIEND

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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