Sunday, December 31, 2006
So, been missing out on here a lot, haven't I..Anyway, SALAM AIDILADHA and HAPPY NEW YEAR to all. One more week left before school reopens. Dreadness coming back. Well, been spending almost every single day at work. From evening till 3 am in the morning. Never fail to hang around with the colleagues after work. Release boredom. No one's at home anyway. So I don't see the point in returning home early when I know I'll be alone, every night. Might as well I waste my time away with friends, even though we talk nonsensically sometimes. Work's been great as usual despite the fact that the orders were like water flowing, especially during the Christmas eve, Christmas itself, NYE and still to come. Tomorrow. New Year itself. Gotta be prepare for the 'battle'. Heh.
Ok now, totally different case. I still don't understand what is his motive. Being nice and mushy and all those goody-goody stuffs then being rude, harsh and acts like a freaking jerk at times. It's been a year yet I still couldn't manage to understand him. As in WHO/WHAT is the REAL HIM. I just find it hard to trust. Yes, no doubt I was jealous when I got to know that story from my brother. Boy, I was just as shocked. And I almost spilled the beans over to him, last night. And we almost fought. But things returned calm when he started to smile and laugh again. And I don't know what is fucking wrong with me when even after all the harsh/stupid words he spouted, even though it's meant as a joke, I will still apologize at the end of the day. That was what I did last night. And yes, true enough, I've been living a lie all these while. I didn't really mean what I said abt him. My good friend expected it already so there goes all the nagging and stuffs...It's hard indeed..But well, he's going to serve the nation next week. No doubt I'm gonna miss him damn much, but I guess it's for my own good too. Heh..As for family wise, I guess that's it. I'm washing my hands off, with regards to that matter. Simply put, I'm giving up. I don't want to interfere anymore. I just don't understand nor know what's the freaking plan and what things are gonna be like. I've had enough of asking and helping..And yes, told Dad that it was super duper hard for me to accept the whole damn thing. It may be easy for my siblings but not for me. I merely spouted the truth cos I could hold on no longer. I'm tired of waiting abt what's gonna happen and stuffs..Very irritating lah..Haven't been meeting up most of my regular friends due to shortness of time. Am really sorry abt that. Will make it up to you people as soon as possible. Hmms...What else...Some people have been asking me what's my new year resolution. Frankly, I've none. And to me I don't think it's important. To each it's own, of course. Certain friends have like those simple yet tough ones. Like quit smoking/drinking/clubbing..Some is to get a license..And all other sorts of resolution. But as for yours truly, nahs...I just live the year as it is. All I care right now is to buck up on my freaking attendance and graduate in 2 months time. I wouldn't want to stay in that school for another year anymore, hence this is the time for me to improve..Haha..Like real..I guess I'll be back some other time...Meanwhile, ENJOY YOUR 2007!!! =)
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