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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

At my cousin's place right now... This kind chap let me borrow his laptop for me to do my stuffs.. Initially thought of doing my project, Frontpage, but he don't have the software.. Sucha pity..

Things have been going rather downhill for me.. School wise, I don't even know whether I'll get to graduate this march.. I might even have to extend for another 6 more months.. All due to lack of attendance.. Simply pathetic.. Mates in school have been filling in poly forms but not me. Dad's been asking wha I wanna do after I'm done with ITE.. I have no answer. I myself am not sure of what I want in for my future. Everything seems complicated. Since I'm here, I'm gonna use this chance to say this out..

To my dear mates (refering to the 11 of us),

I would be lying if I say I never miss the times we had during the first year. The stories we exchanged, the tears we cried, the joy and laughter we shared.. It's seriously one of a kind. You guys are seriously a unique bunch I've ever known. You guys made my ITE life a great one. Yes, mistakes do happen and due to that, things change btwn the 11 of us. Enemies were born from within. I may not know what's the actual reason behind all these, but I hope to make things clear. I am not on anyone's side. All of you are still my friends.. No doubt I hope for the storm to pass and sun shine again, But I know it won't happen. Whatever it is, I just want to thank each and every one of you for all the time and memories spent for these 2 years. I truly appreciate it. I am surely gonna miss you people. Let's spend the last few days of school with beautiful happenings ya...=)

To my SC mates (Jannah, Nana and all those who I'm close with),

Thanks people. I know I've been a rebellious one during the last few months.. Certain things happened hence I changed. I tend to be more 'bo chap' about school esp SC.. Forgive me for that.. But I just can't help it.. I'm still struggling to find my real self.. Whatever it is, thanks a lot for the bond we shared. Memories I will always keep.. May you people find happiness and success in time to come.


Home wise.

It's gonna be official in late march. I don't know how I'm gonna attend it without facing any difficulties. I ever have the thinking of not attending at all and spend time alone outside, but it will obviously be rude. So I guess I'll just present myself and do own stuffs. I can't even imagine of the aftermath. That's gonna be worse, I suppose. Heh.. She is nice no doubt.. But I guess I still need time to adapt. It's already been nearly 6 months now but I just can't seem to. Maybe it'll take years.. See how lah.. Communication btwn me and dad has also been 'decreasing'. Sometimes we don't even see each other for like a few days.. I guess he's also busy thinking about his own stuffs...


Work wise.

Things are doing fine there. Been spending lotsa of time with my working mates.. They are like the sun, the shield, the rain.. Practically almost everything.. No doubt arguments do occur between us, but all are just for a while. They are always the ones I look for when I'm bored, sad, happy and all.. I'm grateful for having them..

28/02/2004
The date which she left us. I'll always remember the day/date she went away. I will always miss you, Dear Mum..

I guess this is all for now..I won't know when I'll be logging in again.. So please take care of yourself people.. Those who I won't be seeing after 14 march, thanks for the friendship created. I will always treasure it..=)


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5:22 AM

Friday, February 09, 2007

I will be back as soon as my computer's alive. Meanwhile, get back to me via hp if there's anything.. And I really mean anything at all.. Heh... So yeah.. Take care people.. =)


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10:47 AM

[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
101087
Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
Gastrics=BEST FRIEND

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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