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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Monday, March 19, 2007

At last.. 2 years is over. No longer a student. No more exams, projects, muggings and all. Well, at least for now. The journey of my education shall take a rest, until I decide to pursue on, which I don't know when. Results will be out in April. Now, I have all the time to myself. Currently am just committing towards the part time job. Am still thinking of what kind of job I really really want.

Suddenly I'm at a lost. I don't know where to go from here. I don't know how to start. I simply have obtained a blank mind. I just don’t know what to do!! Maybe for a start, I'm going to clean the whole house esp my room. It’s been dusty for like I don’t know how many months already. All my stuffs are messed up all over the room. So yeah.. Shall do that during one of the weekends. But trust me, I am going to procrastinate FOR SURE. Heh..

Other than that, I guess I shall take some time off and let loose. As in do the things I really love, like reading for instance. I managed to borrow a Sandra Brown book from the library and damn!! It felt so great reading. I am always so engrossed in reading; hence at one point of time on the train, when I wanted to alight, I accidentally hit the railing. Luckily no one noticed my foolishness. Lol. Maybe besides reading, I shall also indulge in writing, back again. We'll see how.

Spending the last week of school, doing detention with Yat, Nana and Dee was truly great. We basically sat in sch and crap our time till 3pm. During the last 3 days, myself, Yat and Nana headed to town. Far East to Wisma, Marina Sq the next day and Suntec the last day. It felt really good, spending our last moments.. Just the 3 of us. Like it used to be during the first year. Never did I knew we had to part after all that is done. Yes, no doubt we'll still be hanging out with each other but the feeling is just different. Watching horror movie with Yat, The Scaredy Cat is definitly hilarious! I thought I was the one who's going to scream due to the horror flicks but it turned out otherwise. Heh.. No doubt I hide behind my sweater whenever the scary part comes, but I guess she's worst. She had wrapped herself with the sweater so many times, leaving me alone to watch the movie. Cursing and swearing away in her seat, while I continue telling her what's next. Her imagination is seriously Barney-like, I tell you. Lol. It was indeed an enjoyable time though.

The wisdom tooth pain is acting up again. Can barely chew my food. The feeling of numbness is also there. Boy.. This is such a dread. Other than that, been spending time with the work mates almost everyday. I'm just trying to take my mind of something which is going to happen in a few days time. But no matter how hard I try, it's useless. It's still going to happen anyway. Whether I like it or not. I'm juggling hard in between 2 parties. It's seriously tough to please people, ain't it. All I think about now, is that BIG matter. I am really tired of all these. I don't want things to change after it happens. On the other hand, I won't blame them if treatment-wise is different. I'm praying hard to HIM that everything, practically everything, will all be fine.


"It hurts to find out that what you wanted doesn't match what you dreamed it would be"


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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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