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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Who would have thought he was just using her? The friendship means nothing to him. He talks badly about her to others. Is that what FRIENDS are really for? Maybe she was at fault, for having feelings for him and for believing and trusting him so much. What her brother told her all these while, proves to be true. It was hard to swallow at first. The thought of hating him is so very difficult. Why would mature people even do these kinda things?

The seduction. That very long kiss. That warm hug. It's just too good to be true. She had wanted to be in his arms badly and yes, it did happen for a sheer moment. That point of time, she was unsure of what she was doing and why it was happening. The only thing she knew was both of them had a great time together. His sweetness, his warmth and the security he gave, was all she ever wanted. It was as though they are really a couple. All good things come to an end, eventually.

He vanished after that incident. She was distraught, of course. No calls, no messages. NOTHING. Until one day, it was his birthday. Being a good friend, she remembered it and gave him a birthday message. He replied, saying, the same old "Thanks!", and that's it. One fine night, she bumped into him at a coffeeshop. She was with her colleagues and he was with his mates. All she could do was smile at him. It was as though nothing ever happened between them.

Days, weeks and months passed. She was slowly trying to get rid of him, from her mind. And when she eventually did it, people kept asking her about him. On a peaceful afternoon, while she was sleeping, her phone received a call. It was him. She was pondering on whether to answer or not. Her heart tells her to, but not her mind. Her mind was determined to totally forget about him. And in the end, he hung up. Why, after so long, must he be back? Is he going to use another tactic to lure her out again?

This is enough. She's tired of being the good innocent girl. She's tired of being used by not only him, but also some other people. She's tired of leading this kind of life. All those that have been said and done, she then realise that she is only his one night stand.


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1:47 AM

[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
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Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
Gastrics=BEST FRIEND

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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