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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Monday, May 21, 2007

Had a talk with a brother at work with regards to different issues. Experiences, Life, Relationships and Family. Was asking him when is his big day going to be, and well, it's going to be at the end of the year. I don't know why but I just have this mixed up feelings about it. Not that I have any special feelings towards him or what, I solely regard him as my brother and even called him by that. I feel happy but also kinda sad on the other hand.

It's like he is going to be someone's husband soon enough. And I can't really be as close to him like I am right now. No doubt I can still talk to him abt stuffs and all, but I can't always rely on him and burden him with my stuffs. It won't be appropriate anymore. Hmm.. Seems that the people that I'm close to, is slowly drifting away. Maybe only few will stay and be with me throughout my life journey, as qouted by a good friend. Nevertheless, I know they are the ones who I can depend on, be it rain or shine.

This brother, however, did taught me some things in life, which is useful. Even though at times, it's kinda stupid, some of what he said do make sense after all. Well, he has lived far more longer than me, to know what is right/wrong, good/bad for me. I will surely miss him after his marriage. Things won't be the same anymore, that's all I can say.

Looks like this house seems to belong to me only. As it seems that I'm the only permanent resident living here. Be it late at night or wee hours of morning,weekday or weekend, I will come back to this house, in the same condition which I left it, before I'm out to work. It's like as if I'm left to fend for me own. The family bond is somewhat, drifting again. They are on their own, and I'm on mine. Different lifestyles are what we lead. This is one of the reasons why I don't like to be home early. There's simply nothing to look forward to, except the same four walls.

It's just something, unexplainable.


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1:44 AM

[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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