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"I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.


Kit McCallum

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Sometimes, I wonder if whatever I've done all these while, is it right? What have I gain so far? What have I lost? Sometimes, when I think back, do I really have to try that hard for something? Just what is my purpose? Just where am I heading to?

Sometimes, to me what I did is just nothing but someone somewhere, will think of it as a mistake done. Sometimes I don't think that I'm twisting stuffs around my lil finger but someone else thinks the other way round.
There will be someone who thinks that I'm meddling with things which I'm not supposed to. There will be someone who thinks that I'm not really old nor mature enough to handle certain stuffs.
There will be someone who'll be going against my methods and means.
There will be someone who thinks that I will always rebel and stick within myself.
Sometimes, I don't think that what I'm doing all these while is unsafe, or rather, unappropriate, but the someone else thinks it is. Get what I mean?

I'm not saying that there is a particular someone, but so far all these while, there will always be a barrier against what I want to do. Okay, maybe at times it's not a 'someone', but just 'something' which will prevent me to proceed on.

It gets harder when FEELINGS are involved. It always does, ain't it. I guess, I should back away and lay low, at least for a while.


Oh anyways, I was soooo very exhilarated when I saw the lil boy. Maybe no longer a boy. I should start calling him 'Young Man'. Haha.. It's been really long. Like what, 2 or 3 years? Since I last saw him? Yeah, that long.. No doubt we do still keep in contact but having to bump into each other just now, it was just GREAT. I just miss him.. My lil boy.. =)

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[P]rofiles
I never thought I would have a complicated future. Well, I guess that's how life works. Maybe HE has the best answer to it all.

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Khairunnisa
101087
Fickle-head
Hopeless
Vulnerable
Cookie Addict
Heavy Sleeper
Cookie Monster & Spongebob Fan
Huge Procrastinator
Dysfunctional mind
Gastrics=BEST FRIEND

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[E]xits
[Issac]
[Nazurah]
[1/4]
[Khairul]
[Fadzillah]
[2/4]
[Nana]
[Irza]
[Jannah]
[Kak Sally]
[Nana]
[Eddy]
[Hidayah]
[Fariza]
[Aini]
[Syasya]
[Deeyana]
[Yat]
[Muz]
[Syikin]
[Darn]
[T]agging




[C]redits
Design & Concept: ChronoCube
Base Codes: effloresce} & wishix
Font: dafont
Image: ChronoCube
Brushes: Ca-pris
Software Used: Photoshop CS 2 & Dreamweaver 8
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